wesley’s thoughts

Aug 14 2022 — 21:48#

yesterday was pretty much filled up with the memorial for Jake. i'm really glad that i was able to be there.

i'll probably write more about them in time, but they were a really incredible person, and i'm grateful to have known them and learned all that i did from them.

Avery talked at the memorial about how Jake's life was for a lot of people a sort of demonstration that it was possible to live truly far outside the bounds of the ordinary, and that resonated deeply with me, but… they could live that way until they couldn't, and i'm so angry that society does not have space for people like them.

(xpost from my arenablog)

Aug 13 2022 — 08:14#

weddings are just tramua bonding for cishet ppl

Aug 12 2022 — 00:53#

btw it's possible for two different things to be correct but the combination of them to be incorrect. jsyk

Aug 12 2022 — 06:50#

computers are machines that were put on earth by the devil himself to punish humans for their hubris

Aug 11 2022 — 19:26#

queering the stwong/stronk binary

Aug 11 2022 — 14:45#

nothing quite like the whiplash of buying a tarot deck and immediately getting asked "would you like to sign up for our loyalty program today?"

Aug 11 2022 — 13:43#

u ever think about how bees use polar coordinates?

Aug 11 2022 — 09:47#

in a stunning moment of clarity i was suddenly overwhelmed with the realization that the tattoo i most want is a line drawing of the frog riding a snail meme

Aug 08 2022 — 10:08#

signature as meditation

Aug 08 2022 — 14:50#

you ever see a design studio website where you're like is this the kind of design studio where everyone's fucking each other?

Aug 06 2022 — 22:33#

reading https://www.color.org/faqs.xalter and feeling myself slowly untethering from reality

Aug 03 2022 — 23:14#

man riso printing is kinda expensive… but so pretty…

Aug 02 2022 — 19:22#

something titled "soft body physics" but it's just porn

Jul 31 2022 — 20:15#

first fireflies of summer

Jul 30 2022 — 17:27#

i wonder if ███ ever read my are.na

Jul 30 2022 — 21:49#

i have never done anything serious in my entire life

Jul 30 2022 — 21:29#

there's a transhumanism/transhumance pun somewhere but i'm too lazy to find it

Jul 29 2022 — 17:10#

michael pollan is a policy failure

Jul 29 2022 — 21:22#

they/it ??? could be

Jul 28 2022 — 22:12#

read my thoughts.page with a screenreader and i am SPOOKED

Jul 28 2022 — 14:27#

had my first psychic reading today, and i'm gonna be honest, it was underwhelming

Jul 28 2022 — 13:25#

the thing i always forget about nyc is that the density of cute people is just totally off the charts

Jul 28 2022 — 19:02#

a little brain damage, as a treat

Jul 27 2022 — 19:28#

i think i've gotten worse at being in love but better at being a partner

Jul 27 2022 — 16:40#

fucked up that so many people aren't in nyc tbh

Jul 27 2022 — 10:22#

"platform" is a category error

Jul 24 2022 — 10:55#

fucked up that the mch supermarket is better than a lot of rural supermarkets i've been to

Jul 22 2022 — 12:28#

"fleet" vs "flock"

Jul 20 2022 — 21:50#

did personal websites kill zines? uh oh

Jul 20 2022 — 12:47#

forklift traffic jam

Jul 19 2022 — 13:59#

today i am thankful for the breeze

Jul 15 2022 — 01:45#

i'm high so i made a dumb pun on twitter which has by a bizarre but inexplicably explainable chain of events resulted in me needing to update the version of nixos i'm using

Jul 13 2022 — 14:55#

nostalgia for futures no longer possible

Jul 13 2022 — 00:39#

they should have thinkpad stores like they do apple stores

Jul 11 2022 — 20:46#

extremely funny that the buzzfeed comments section is actually based as hell

Jul 10 2022 — 16:38#

people must attach airtags to their dogs, huh

Jul 09 2022 — 00:24#

the vibes here are so weird i have to be dreaming (i am not)

Jul 08 2022 — 22:55#

and if i can't manage awe i can at least get a laugh out of the fact that the place i have a unexpected transfer in my new itinerary is called "weener"

Jul 08 2022 — 22:20#

taking good advice from the parenting book i read a few days ago about trying to turn anger in awe. works pretty well!

Jul 08 2022 — 22:16#

well, transfer five of six got fucked up, hooray hooray

Jul 08 2022 — 18:58#

hamburg review: seems like a perfectly fine place (there is a nice anarchist squat) but it is really hard for anything to balance out how absolutely inhumane the train station is

Jul 08 2022 — 04:39#

transfer one of six: miraculously not fucked up

Jul 07 2022 — 21:25#

scrarched off a terf sticker. every little bit counts.

Jul 07 2022 — 12:08#

so my "haha let's just book everything at the last minute and not plan anything" has finally bitten me and i now have a absolutely hellish itinerary for the next like 30 hours BUT on the other hand i now get a surprise day in copenhagen AND a surprise day in hamburg so there's that!

Jul 06 2022 — 15:08#

OH: "i'm so happy just to be on a train"

me too, lady. me too.

Jul 06 2022 — 13:34#

got on the bus literally one minute before it left. hell yeah

Jul 06 2022 — 10:44#

i really wish i could take anarchist writing on medium dot com seriously :/

(to be clear, this is a me problem)

Jul 06 2022 — 01:55#

i've got my complaints about oslo but it is nice to be in a place where you can just order a dark n stormy

Jul 05 2022 — 22:51#

i miss 7-11 onigiri 😭😭😭

Jul 01 2022 — 12:55#

who needs adhd meds when you can just think about [redacted] to fill yourself with enough rage to get things done 😇

Jun 30 2022 — 14:10#

real fact: trader joe's used to do 2% of its sales in ammunition until jfk was assassinated

Jun 29 2022 — 10:57#

ebook imprint page telling me it's published on acid-free 100% postconsumer recycled paper

Jun 26 2022 — 17:23#

dot your i's, cross your t's, circle your a's

Jun 26 2022 — 16:33#

i wrote a thing that i think is Good but maybe is Bad and i have received no feedback on it of any kind and it is Stressful

Jun 24 2022 — 10:29#

i think i will feel ready to be part of society again soon

Jun 23 2022 — 20:54#

i want to live in a city where you can lie down anywhere and take a nap

Jun 23 2022 — 20:35#

made myself Unhappy !

Jun 21 2022 — 21:56#

purposefully trying to subvert a expectation is just as much letting your life be governed by it as uncritically following it is

Jun 21 2022 — 20:51#

i refused to mark a train signal as a "traffic light" and now recaptcha is punishing me :(

Jun 16 2022 — 15:57#

i should collect units that have the same name but different meanings in different countries. there's the whole chi/foot thing, and apparently there is a "scandinavian mile" which is currently 10km but has been different things as well :p

Jun 13 2022 — 16:32#

fucked up that the word "rest" comes from the meaning "remainder" — what you do after you've done everything else. rest should come first, imo

Jun 12 2022 — 21:55#

"but that's neither here nor there" i say about something that is DEFINITELY here or there

Jun 12 2022 — 20:53#

weird day to be a panpsychist

Jun 12 2022 — 14:51#

sun after the rain >>>>>>>>>>

Jun 12 2022 — 11:44#

this ode shit seems easy tbh

Jun 12 2022 — 11:26#

i am going to learn how to write a ode. a real one, not the fake kind where you go "an ode to _____" and then write a fucking blog post

Jun 11 2022 — 21:50#

people should write more good books instead of mostly writing bad books

Jun 11 2022 — 20:54#

norwegian is a very silly language in general but høydemeter is a very good word

Jun 11 2022 — 19:47#

getting some excellent gossip from the table across from mine

Jun 11 2022 — 08:56#

LIS airport review: great for arrivals, sucks ass for departures

Jun 10 2022 — 23:25#

i love lists so much, and also drugs

Jun 10 2022 — 20:42#

people have such bad taste in bookstores

Jun 09 2022 — 22:00#

this atm line is poppin

Jun 09 2022 — 20:51#

beauty is seeing the world for what it is

(working definition?)

Jun 08 2022 — 22:15#

i really like asking good questions

Jun 08 2022 — 21:32#

i sorta wish i was the kind of person who could get really into open data

Jun 08 2022 — 09:05#

not sure i'd be able to date someone who isn't on signal

Jun 07 2022 — 23:07#

aerial view is extremely underrated

Jun 07 2022 — 01:35#

locks clocks & maps

Jun 06 2022 — 16:37#

reading nearly any travel blogging/advice is so completely alienating to me

Jun 06 2022 — 11:44#

i just googled "what year is it" if you're wondering how i'm doing

Jun 05 2022 — 16:15#

big couldashouldawoulda sort of day :)

Jun 04 2022 — 10:48#

haven't been keeping up with my face goop

Jun 04 2022 — 10:03#

should've brought my fingerless gloves for better hacking in the cold

Jun 04 2022 — 02:40#

they should standardize sleeping bags so you can zip a bunch of them together into one big cuddly sleeping pouch

Jun 03 2022 — 17:22#

emfcamp is fun since i can wear all black and wander around with a thinkpad open and a club mate and that's just totally normal non-weirdo behaviour

Jun 02 2022 — 09:30#

being in england is funny since everyone sounds like they're doing a bit but they're not they all just sound like that

Jun 02 2022 — 06:09#

it's fucked up that clouds look so soft and cozy but are actually just cold and wet

Jun 01 2022 — 15:01#

holy crap, people in the usa just do not understand how to exist in a society

Jun 01 2022 — 08:36#

i has been 0️⃣ days since a cafe last played a song that my ex used to listen to all the time

May 31 2022 — 12:54#

i let everyone who asked to touch my hair this weekend do it, that's personal growth to me

May 30 2022 — 22:29#

chapstick pocket space to usefulness ratio is off the charts

May 30 2022 — 20:54#

attunement is when a conversation is an immersive experience.

to have an immersive conversation, focus not on the other person or on yourself, but on the connection between you, as you would in dance.

May 30 2022 — 20:51#

been feeling pretty bad about myself lately but here are a few things that people have told me are good about me recently:

May 30 2022 — 19:51#

going to start telling people that homeopathy is scientifically proven to work (because the placebo effect is real)

May 26 2022 — 16:44#

thinking about doing a bit where i say i'm going to tell a joke then keep saying funny things but when people laugh i'll be like "no, no, that's not the joke that's just stuff you have to know for the joke to make sense"

May 26 2022 — 11:53#

nb suffragette mashup flag when

May 25 2022 — 22:59#

one of my glasses nosepads fell off and literally my second thought when i noticed was "oh fuck it would be so embarrassing if people saw this and thought i was trying to imitate edward snowden"

May 25 2022 — 16:56#

i love how the portland streetcars say "doors to my right"

May 25 2022 — 16:52#

thinking about death & fame

May 25 2022 — 16:12#

i think probably a lot of fatphobia is just body horror associated with the idea of one's body changing at all

May 24 2022 — 13:54#

i love it when i'm reading a sort of obscure book and it references another sort of obscure book that i've read. so good

May 24 2022 — 06:20#

the will to change book review: read turn this world inside out instead

May 22 2022 — 23:02#

"minor outlying islands" is a pretty diminutive name huh

May 22 2022 — 14:20#

san francisco is a suburb that has to constantly contort itself into the shape of a city

May 21 2022 — 14:50#

i'm just always taken aback by how cis/het normative bell hooks is every time i read her

May 21 2022 — 14:48#

so many people recommend bell hooks and then you actually read her and she's all "one of the first revolutionary acts of visionary feminism must be to restore maleness and masculinity as an ethical biological category" like uhhhhhh

May 21 2022 — 12:07#

barbershop shave verdict: not in any sense worth it, but it was nice to have someone gently touch my face

May 21 2022 — 06:22#

my blog is now the #1 google hit for "how to pirate books" so that's cool i guess

May 19 2022 — 14:25#

libraries are really good

May 19 2022 — 11:26#

open loop feelings

May 19 2022 — 09:21#

i am on a airplane!

May 19 2022 — 08:12#

it's pretty bullshit that the usa got all the fucked up parts of english common law but not the right to wander

May 19 2022 — 07:38#

i guess i'm leaving taipei? for now

May 19 2022 — 05:57#

we have reached the "frantically shoving everything into suitcases" stage of packing

May 18 2022 — 22:54#

losing it that the french government tld is .gouv.fr

May 18 2022 — 17:19#

fondly remembering when i convinced half a dozen people to ford a river with me completely spontaneously

May 18 2022 — 15:37#

i don't think i've been myself in a long time

May 18 2022 — 14:31#

finding lots of new and exciting ways to stress myself out!

May 18 2022 — 13:09#

I DID NOT BUDGET ENOUGH TIME FOR HAVING FEELINGS IN THIS PACKING/MOVING/TRAVEL PROCESS!

May 18 2022 — 08:23#

"sorry, do you speak english?"

yes but i'm completely useless at actually helping 😇

May 18 2022 — 01:42#

just learned about vrchat transing people and this is based af

May 16 2022 — 22:47#

just clicked a button that paid me $13 and reduced my stress levels by like 30%

May 16 2022 — 17:08#

extremely disappointed that ao3 doesn't have anything on the closer from bojack s3e7

May 16 2022 — 16:32#

folks,,,,, i'm tired

May 16 2022 — 00:58#

gearing up to divorce my parakeet

May 14 2022 — 17:51#

moving logistics is 90% managing Feelings

May 14 2022 — 16:11#

gotta say it's extremely weird when people assume that art always closely reflects / is a metaphor for how the artist feels

May 14 2022 — 14:26#

i have really good opinions and everyone should love me because of that

May 14 2022 — 02:30#

i love the shadow of you that exists only in my mind

May 13 2022 — 01:18#

i keep on wanting to make a arena channel called "this sucks" where i put things that suck but that's very mean so i'm not going to do it.

May 12 2022 — 16:58#

might touch up my own undercut for literally no reason

May 11 2022 — 22:36#

once a sre, always a sre

truly a curse

May 11 2022 — 14:38#

caused some commotion at 7-11 today

May 11 2022 — 14:37#

the knockoff thinkpad battery i bought came pre-swollen, hell yeah

May 11 2022 — 14:02#

screenshots as collage

May 11 2022 — 12:53#

pro tip: it is very rarely a good idea to be honest when filling out customs forms

May 11 2022 — 03:16#

there are a lot of people

May 07 2022 — 21:35#

i have no opinion on the book itself but i gotta say the reviews of this are quite something

May 07 2022 — 20:08#

i am a human person

May 07 2022 — 14:31#

narrator: they could not do that

May 07 2022 — 03:13#

if people don't make spreadsheets about a video game it's probably not worth playing

May 06 2022 — 19:54#

(if i felt like being snarky i'd say the bus chiptune jingle was better than the noise show i was taking the bus to but tbh it's a pretty reasonable noise show)

May 06 2022 — 19:04#

the bus i'm on plays a lil chiptune jingle whenever someone presses the stop button :)

May 06 2022 — 13:45#

if you work with computers your goal should probably be to destroy as much value as possible

May 06 2022 — 13:30#

huh i didn't realize that tumblr is called tumblr because of _why

May 04 2022 — 13:35#

i've been playing a lot of roguelikes recently and lemme tell you none of them are very much like Rogue (1980)

May 01 2022 — 10:27#

looking at the actual logistics for my travel and realizing that i may have made some terrible mistakes

Apr 30 2022 — 21:49#

so it turns out the stanley parable is... not that good? idk maybe you had to play it a decade ago or something :/

Apr 29 2022 — 11:19#

"walking on eggshells" is a funny metaphor since crushing eggshells is actually extremely satisfying irl

Apr 29 2022 — 09:59#

it's fucked up how i can clean up my apartment once and then i have to do it all over again a few weeks later

Apr 29 2022 — 09:48#

people talk about living every day like it's their last, but really i feel like it's better to live every day as though you'll live forever

Apr 28 2022 — 22:54#

the internet: it's bad, folks

Apr 28 2022 — 11:01#

telling someone "this is all part of my performance art project" while i'm fucking them

Apr 28 2022 — 07:39#

was about to apologize for being idiosyncratic in my communications platforms but y'know what? i'm actually not sorry at all i have extremely good taste and people need to deal with that

Apr 28 2022 — 06:55#

gradient ascent

Apr 27 2022 — 16:19#

waking up early is so good. fucked around on the internet, went to a cafe and worked for a bit, went to the park and read next to a bunch of butterflies, went to a mediterranean restaurant for lunch, and it's somehow only 4pm???

Apr 27 2022 — 13:24#

human culture peaked with dat boi in 2016. i will not be taking further questions, thank you

Apr 27 2022 — 13:17#

there are some good unicode characters out there

Apr 27 2022 — 12:27#

pretty fucked up that cafes and restaurants that are clearly fronts are some of the best out there

Apr 27 2022 — 10:49#

they didn't reply so joke's on me, got some tension out of it anyways 🙃

Apr 27 2022 — 10:30#

telling someone i have a crush on them because i am too lazy and tired to deal with any tension at all. classic wesley move

Apr 27 2022 — 10:21#

i want a girl with a short attention span and a looooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnggggg reading list

Apr 27 2022 — 09:10#

i have some real banger tweets on my alt

Apr 27 2022 — 08:21#

thinking about when i watched mulholland drive and fell asleep partway through and woke up and was like wtf how did i miss so much of this???? and then i looked at the summary an was like oh huh i was actually probably only asleep for like five minutes or something

Apr 27 2022 — 07:34#

i forgot to pay my phone bill so they turned my data off and i just paid it and honestly? it was way better when my phone didn't have the internet on it!

Apr 27 2022 — 07:26#

i think i got myself a new crush??? very exciting

Apr 27 2022 — 06:45#

i am so excited for emfcamp!! it's gonna be so good!

Apr 25 2022 — 20:22#

happy to announce that i am back on my bullshit

Apr 25 2022 — 15:53#

rain sounds are good

Apr 25 2022 — 15:44#

(hmmm it's actually not as good as i remember but i appreciate it anyway)

Apr 25 2022 — 15:38#

fuck yeah the cherry blossom sodas are back at my 7-11!!! they're so good!!!

Apr 25 2022 — 09:06#

today's mood: getting extremely mad at html compressing multiples spaces into one by default destroying so much expressive potential on the web

Apr 25 2022 — 09:02#

a quote that i think about every so often:

Everyone thinks that the essence of pedagogy is in psychology, but it's not. The essence of pedagogy is in ethics.

— Simon Soloveychik

Apr 24 2022 — 21:58#

someone should make a musical instrument that is harder for a musician to play than for someone untrained

Apr 24 2022 — 21:40#

it is almost 10pm and i am extremely tired but you know what ? im going to get drunk anyways, because i love myself

Apr 24 2022 — 11:17#

being a normie is a radical act

Apr 23 2022 — 14:39#

hmmm i should get back to being cool & sexy on thoughts.page instead of talking about what a mess i am, probably

Apr 23 2022 — 14:32#

my life may be a huge mess,, but .... ... uh

Apr 23 2022 — 03:41#

finally got around to turning my phone back on, instant regret

Apr 23 2022 — 03:16#

i should probably uh talk to a person or something

Apr 21 2022 — 03:04#

i had a dream about meeting a semi-famous person who i do not know, so i unfollowed them on twitter. seems like the right thing to do.

Apr 20 2022 — 15:49#

turned off my phone & lost track of time for ... 2 days? 3 days? a week?

time to, uh, catch up on everything i missed i guess ?

Apr 17 2022 — 08:50#

who invented plates?? what a scam

Apr 16 2022 — 01:46#

"i'm not a programmer, i don't want that kind of complexity in my life"

— the dude in this factorio playthrough i'm watching lying to himself

Apr 13 2022 — 02:35#

i have wasted like 12 hours of my life at this point on a bad game that i think was made by a literal child. i am addicted. pls send help

Apr 13 2022 — 02:17#

god i fucking hate idle games. they get me every time

Apr 11 2022 — 19:17#

ok hear me out, lead makeup might have been a bad idea, but it must've been really effective sunscreen right??

Apr 11 2022 — 16:35#

every mp3 player should also be a field recorder/synth/daw

Apr 10 2022 — 07:05#

always fucks me up that xiaonanmen is a roundabout

Apr 10 2022 — 06:28#

today's plans:

Apr 10 2022 — 06:23#

18NT tea egg review: acab

Apr 09 2022 — 05:10#

someone just described me as a bard due to my sexting so im gonna take that as a w

Apr 09 2022 — 03:12#

finally learned the chinese characters for caffeine, and tbh it was better when i didn't know that all the fruit teas actually have caffeine in them >.<

Apr 08 2022 — 19:45#

cursed realization: pocari sweat smells like ketoacidosis

Apr 08 2022 — 18:18#

my mess is such a life

Apr 08 2022 — 15:19#

me: gets booster shot

also me: WHY am i so tired ,, WHAT THE FUCK

Apr 07 2022 — 19:32#

i think i want to make a physical trinket to represent every project i'm working on. then i can carry around the ones i'm really active on, have some of the others spread out on my desk, stick them in a shoebox in the back of my closet when i'm done with them, etc etc

Apr 07 2022 — 10:30#

thinking more about the puzzles in patrick's parabox, one kinda fun category of puzzle sort of feels like a trust fall, where there's only one or two things you can do, and they both seem like they clearly can't work, but each time you do one there's a clear next step until eventually you're just like, oh fuck i get it.

like a puzzle as a sort of magic trick, where the game is just like "hey watch this" but makes you be the one to actually do the magic

Apr 07 2022 — 08:42#

oh, you wanted to authentically express yourself? yeah, we've got a microtransaction for that

Apr 07 2022 — 08:23#

the problem with watching streamers is that i cant put them on 3x speed :/

Apr 06 2022 — 15:12#

tfw when you type aaaaarg.fail right on the first try

Apr 06 2022 — 15:02#

do you think it's weird to email someone and ask if they want to be your intellectual nemesis?

Apr 06 2022 — 12:00#

everything is just so deeply fucked, huh

Apr 05 2022 — 23:09#

i really want someone to make a cross between patricks parabox and sokyokuban. it would be so bad but also so good

Apr 05 2022 — 04:42#

pointing at things and falling in love

Apr 04 2022 — 04:28#

patricks parabox is funny because there are some parts of it that would be so good to play while on acid but overall it would just completely reck me

but like, the part where you run around inside your own avatar and it recurses infinitely? that would be SO GOOD

Apr 02 2022 — 23:32#

feeling sad about how inaccessible creativity can be

Mar 31 2022 — 15:13#

ooookkkkkk its possible i may be completely crashing now

Mar 31 2022 — 13:53#

always nice when i tell someone how old i am and they don't completely freak out

Mar 31 2022 — 11:04#

i think i am actually going to be able to roll over my fucked up sleep schedule today! very exciting

Mar 31 2022 — 04:04#

i think im really funny

Mar 26 2022 — 17:57#

love being a disgusting lil freak

Mar 26 2022 — 16:18#

not having any of your friends know each other seems pretty underrated tbh

Mar 25 2022 — 20:07#

running into every anarchist space i can find and screaming "READ TYRANNY OF STRUCTURELESSNESS BY JO FREEMAN"

Mar 25 2022 — 18:47#

today on "i've been pampered by the taipei mrt" i was very annoyed that i missed my train because someone was being extremely rude by blocking the escalator, and i had to wait a entire minute and thirty seconds for the next train

Mar 24 2022 — 21:19#

losing my mind ~~~

Mar 21 2022 — 15:14#

twitter: weed

tumblr: lsd

are.na: methylphenidate

instagram: ketamine

facebook: alcohol

special.fish: mdma

livejournal: psilocybin

pinboard: adderall

reddit: cocaine

youtube: benzos

???: whipits

???: modafinil

???: dmt

Mar 21 2022 — 13:28#

learned some incorrect facts in my dreams today. i also saw a beautiful sunset, though, so it seems worth it :)

Mar 21 2022 — 01:55#

proposal: we should slow down the revolution of the earth, so that my sleep schedule can properly match the length of the day

Mar 20 2022 — 06:44#

honestly sorta hard to believe that this is the first time i've pulled the epic lifehack of staying out so late the the mrt opens just in order to take me home

Mar 20 2022 — 05:36#

flashback to a dream from like a year ago, wow

Mar 19 2022 — 23:51#

(my train just arrived, exactly when the countdown sign said it would. still mad tho)

Mar 19 2022 — 23:43#

i occasionally catch myself being like "i have to wait EIGHT WHOLE MINUTES for my train?"

and then i remember the nyc subway and cry

Mar 19 2022 — 20:37#

synergy verdict: not enough dancing, too many people pointing their phones at the stage

maybe if there is enough making out at the afterparty it'll redeem itself tho

Mar 19 2022 — 14:58#

i should clarify that dayraves are cool & good, but if ur putting on a dayrave you gotta say that's what it is!

Mar 19 2022 — 13:35#

especially annoying since the set that's most interesting to me is at 2:30pm but like. i'm not going to go to a electronic show at 2:30pm. i'm just not

Mar 19 2022 — 13:27#

ok so i bought tickets for synergy before i knew much about it and i just looked at the start time today and it's 2pm? who starts a electronic music event at 2pm?? and ends it at 10pm???? i am extremely confused

Mar 18 2022 — 21:11#

i know i write this here nearly every single time i get drunk, but: wow, being drunk is real good!

Mar 18 2022 — 19:02#

wtf this is great

Mar 18 2022 — 18:12#

somebody should make benzos but like, have them not be extremely addictive. free idea right there

Mar 18 2022 — 14:33#

maybe i didn't get into the cult i applied for? i thought it was a sure thing 🤔

Mar 18 2022 — 03:31#

did u know that im really cute & sexy? just a fun lil fact

Mar 17 2022 — 18:12#

gonna go have a mediocre burrito at the mediocre burrito spot

Mar 16 2022 — 21:22#

anyway i'm feeling good so it's time to destroy that by checks notes watching jake paul videos in preparation to record a drama podcast tomorrow

Mar 16 2022 — 21:13#

slowly cooking up a piping hot fresh new ideology in the ol' Ideology Lab

Mar 16 2022 — 21:03#

lots of good Brain Thoughts but nowhere to put them :(((

Mar 16 2022 — 21:00#

update: it is Going Well

Mar 16 2022 — 20:03#

folks,, i'm doing "Performance Art"

Mar 16 2022 — 19:24#

i miss doing drugs

Mar 16 2022 — 16:48#

gonna try to dye it purple before synergy i think so everyone there will know how cool & sexy i am

Mar 16 2022 — 16:44#

haircut get!

Mar 16 2022 — 15:26#

economics is a category error

Mar 15 2022 — 16:46#

i'd rather tilt at different windmills

Mar 15 2022 — 13:19#

a couple excellent askmefi links from today:

"I had a crazy intense dream last night where I was trying to derive the area of a sphere"

"Pouring water from one cup to another? Party animal."

Mar 14 2022 — 23:05#

foodpanda will occasionally, seemingly randomly, stop accepting any of my cards for a day or two, then start again without me changing anything, and it turns out i'm exactly like a rat in a skinner box :|

Mar 14 2022 — 15:06#

having a lot of Feelings these days

Mar 14 2022 — 09:21#

thinking about ███████ and honestly i'm still pretty mad about how everything went down! i definitely made some mistakes, but ugh, that did not have to be nearly as messy as it was

Mar 13 2022 — 17:52#

ugh i really need to go start a cult

Mar 13 2022 — 17:03#

made myself sad :)

Mar 13 2022 — 15:19#

protest is a sort of prayer

Mar 13 2022 — 09:38#

gonna become the most annoying person in the world to movie nerds by being all like "oh the term 'film' is a misnomer now, everything is digital these days" whenever they insist on calling movies "films"

Mar 13 2022 — 09:28#

had a dream where my dad mentioned he was looking at my thoughts.page and sharing the particularly funny ones with his coworkers

Mar 12 2022 — 21:59#

transcripts should stretch the text if someone's talking real quick

Mar 12 2022 — 03:36#

so i don't forget it: my definition of gen z is that you're a zoomer if you can commit an act of psychological violence by telling someone what year you were born in

Mar 12 2022 — 03:32#

nothing like hamilton ktv to remind you of the totality of american hegemony

Mar 11 2022 — 22:56#

i keep on going to parties i know are gonna be full of lesbians and then being surprised when they're full of lesbians 🙃

Mar 11 2022 — 15:00#

heard a aimyon song playing and thought it sounded like illuminati hotties, i think my brain might be broken?

Mar 11 2022 — 13:21#

all i want is to live somewhere with the density of a real city, but in a forest. this isn't that hard! c'mon!

Mar 10 2022 — 03:22#

love how all the websites about how you shouldn't mix melatonin and alcohol list dangerous side effects like "passing out" and "suddenly falling asleep"

buddy, whaddya think i'm trying to do??

Mar 10 2022 — 03:15#

realizing that building things makes me feel optimistic and unsure how to feel about that

Mar 09 2022 — 19:49#

why do i feel like shit??? it's an exciting mystery!

Mar 09 2022 — 18:30#

wtf just saw someone from bumble on the train

Mar 08 2022 — 22:15#

i highly recommend mistaking a piece of food stuck in a crevice in your teeth for a cavity, just for the euphoric feeling of relief you get when you manage to scrape it away

Mar 08 2022 — 21:23#

cried today!

Mar 08 2022 — 17:06#

learning to live with my brainworms

Mar 08 2022 — 15:16#

"spell unnecessarily close enough to correctly that spellcheck even has an idea of what the fuck you're talking about" challenge

Mar 07 2022 — 17:18#

i haunt my own mind, and always will

Mar 07 2022 — 17:04#

saw someone on the train with a flip smartphone today. weird future we're living in.

Mar 07 2022 — 12:44#

tech hippies planning burns are all like "oh i love serendipity, would never want to kill the vibe by planning too much" and then everyone looks at each other and someone has to be the one to be like "ok but we all do want a spreadsheet, right?" and everyone is like "yes please of course thank god"

Mar 07 2022 — 11:51#

anki deck of tarot card meanings

Mar 06 2022 — 22:34#

i want to make a tool for doing federated annotations but the problem is that will attract literally the most annoying people in the world

Mar 06 2022 — 21:29#

it is extremely funny to me that NFTs got turned into something essentially fungible for the exact same reason and via nearly the same process that warhol's work did

Mar 06 2022 — 11:59#

there are a lot of people who take me seriously, but don't take the way i think about the world seriously, and i really don't know how to respond to that

Mar 06 2022 — 03:40#

i realize now that i miss ████'s blank grey walls. strange to say, but it's true

Mar 06 2022 — 03:31#

antiperformative theory of crushes

Mar 05 2022 — 18:56#

sorta funny that google translates both Киев and Kиїв to Kyiv

Mar 05 2022 — 17:42#

sometimes i accidentally parse [[wiki links]] as triple parens and it fucks me up a lil

Mar 05 2022 — 17:14#

anyway it's time to write some HOT TAKES on the INTERNET and then go to a PARTY to GET DRUNK

Mar 05 2022 — 16:34#

"why worry so much about ideology? just live your life!"

— someone who has literally never noticed that many popular ideologies are fundamentally centered around murdering specific types of people

Mar 05 2022 — 16:30#

sometimes i think i should write less about tech and more about things that are actually interesting, and then i read """philosophy""" written by people who mostly write about tech and i'm like, uh maybe we should stay in our lane actually

Mar 05 2022 — 14:26#

Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Mar 05 2022 — 12:37#

worm weather

Mar 05 2022 — 05:50#

watching reruns…

Mar 05 2022 — 02:14#

i think i need to go back to nyc and i really hate that about myself

Mar 05 2022 — 02:00#

lmao i just saw the whole chobani solarpunk ad that i only saw gifs of before and it's so distopic i'd assume it was a joke if i didn't know better

Mar 04 2022 — 23:34#

a really niche pet peeve of mine is when there are news articles about a company's store/office in a specific location that i've been to but then they use a photo of that store/office in a different place instead

Mar 04 2022 — 17:19#

gender tarpit

Mar 04 2022 — 14:32#

i like making friends on the internet. but. i also like making out with my friends.

it's a hard life

Mar 04 2022 — 05:50#

new sarah z video is… not actually good :/

Mar 03 2022 — 22:54#

it's pretty amazing that i haven't bought a switch yet, given that there's a store that sells them on my block between my apartment and the mrt station

Mar 03 2022 — 15:42#

me: drinks a bunch of caffeine and takes stimulants and barely eats

also me: why do i feel anxious?? ridiculous

Mar 03 2022 — 13:22#

if you're REALLY such a descriptivist, why are you saying descriptivism is better than prescriptivism, huh?

Mar 03 2022 — 13:20#

prescriptivism is good, actually

Mar 01 2022 — 15:19#

thinking about turning heel (getting really into authoritarian high modernism)

Feb 28 2022 — 23:19#

oh my god i just saw a clip of someone going "archive of our own? what's that?" just before clicking on a entire page of rpf about them and it felt exactly like watching a horror movie

Feb 28 2022 — 05:31#

pretty sure i've hit my quota of personal mythologizing for, uh, the next like 6 months at least. maybe year.

Feb 28 2022 — 05:30#

i honestly have no fucking clue what elden ring is

Feb 27 2022 — 21:02#

just learned that on average my name is searched on google more than once per day and i really don't know what to think about that

Feb 27 2022 — 19:14#

i had a really good day today, despite the creeping feeling of dread floating all around me !

Feb 27 2022 — 17:33#

getting a new v3 every time you go to the gym is exactly the sweet spot of sucking so much that you grow super quickly and it feels amazing

Feb 27 2022 — 17:22#

i miss you <3

Feb 27 2022 — 13:57#

nonfiction : stimulants :: fiction : ???

i feel like psychedelics are the easiest answer but that's not quite right imo

Feb 27 2022 — 10:49#

weird fuckin dreams today

Feb 26 2022 — 13:20#

i wonder how many years ive got left before hanging out in cafes full of students makes me seem like a creep

Feb 26 2022 — 04:09#

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_fictional_worms

Feb 26 2022 — 02:21#

icymi here are the three movies you need to see in order to understand all of Politics

Feb 25 2022 — 23:57#

sometimes i think of a tweet making fun of allbirds or whatever and i need to remind myself that no one gives a fuck

Feb 25 2022 — 19:52#

im slpy

Feb 25 2022 — 13:58#

happened again :(

Feb 25 2022 — 03:12#

got a emf ticket! who knows what the fuck the world will be in june but maybe i'll be able to hang out with some cute nerds in a field?

Feb 24 2022 — 17:40#

developing some Opinions

Feb 24 2022 — 17:05#

literally playing a song that my last ex made a cover of for me when we first started dating

Feb 24 2022 — 17:04#

this cafe playlist is exactly my last two exs' taste 🤐

Feb 23 2022 — 23:06#

i wish i could teach people how to notice ideology. i feel like i'm really good at it and most people i meet are pretty bad about it but i don't know what i'm doing that helps me notice?

Feb 23 2022 — 19:57#

back to V3s tho, i'm happy about that!

Feb 23 2022 — 19:23#

jeez i didn't go climbing for like three weeks and my muscles just instantly disappeared

Feb 23 2022 — 03:06#

everything is really funny all the sudden and i don't know why

Feb 23 2022 — 02:22#

prediction: time will continue to drag on

Feb 22 2022 — 22:41#

this ambient track has a hum in the background that sounds like my laptop fan and it's fucking me up

Feb 21 2022 — 16:06#

can't believe i used to be a light mode person. fucked up.

Feb 21 2022 — 15:03#

pretty fucked up that reddit ate infogami and not the other way around

Feb 21 2022 — 14:52#

reality and dreams blending together. love it.

Feb 20 2022 — 22:44#

slowly losing my mind rn, it's great ✌️

Feb 20 2022 — 06:12#

ideology for sale, never used

Feb 20 2022 — 04:31#

when i lived in brooklyn and felt restless and couldn't sleep at like 4am i'd sometimes bike all the way up to inwood park and back. need to figure out where that is in taipei.

Feb 20 2022 — 03:40#

thinkpiece complaining about websites all looking the same, written on substack, shared on twitter by bluechecks with tens of thousands of followers

Feb 20 2022 — 02:30#

maybe my worst opinion is that ready player one is an ok book

Feb 19 2022 — 17:57#

someone should do a book of authors/academics who did a bunch of good work while taking way too many amphetamines and then suddenly went off the deep end. because uh. there are a lot of them.

Feb 19 2022 — 14:40#

researching defunct blogging platforms for, uh, some reason, and apparently xanga.com has managed to cling on to life? and at least a couple people were posting on it as of last year? wow

Feb 18 2022 — 18:34#

rainy neon city

Feb 17 2022 — 23:11#

computers arent real

Feb 17 2022 — 15:10#

parallax clouds

Feb 16 2022 — 13:28#

[bane voice] you merely adopted the cloud. i was born in it.

Feb 16 2022 — 04:20#

new bill wurtz tho, that's good

Feb 16 2022 — 03:59#

luv 2 spiral ꩜

Feb 15 2022 — 21:14#

wait discord just… doesn't notify you when you get removed from a server? wtf?

Feb 14 2022 — 19:28#

this was a good idea, the snes romhacking ppl are cute

Feb 13 2022 — 14:42#

just contemplated shaving my head because i'm too lazy to take a shower so uh that's how my life's going

Feb 12 2022 — 18:37#

i thought of something funny while i was drifting off to sleep and it made me laugh which woke me up but waking up made me forget what it was and now i'm sad :(

Feb 12 2022 — 17:41#

psychosomatic earthquake

Feb 12 2022 — 09:20#

we've got like 5 years max until the millennial/zoomer techno-utopianism nostalgia starts kicking in

Feb 10 2022 — 12:22#

they sure keep making new pokémon, huh

Feb 10 2022 — 12:05#

i want to reiterate that this is a completely serious offer, please do actually reach out if you want to do a fake podcast as Art

Feb 10 2022 — 00:49#

time keeps passing and it's honestly terrifying

Feb 09 2022 — 22:19#

i think what i like most about writing assembly is that it maybe feels the most "personal" of any type of code? like, it's just you and the machine and you have a lot of freedom to organize things in whatever way makes you happy, choose your own calling conventions, be as idiosyncratic as you want. it's really different from modern languages in that regard.

i want to read more of other people's assembly, i feel like that'd be an interesting window into how people think.

Feb 09 2022 — 07:33#

65816 assembly actually kinda sucks it turns out? the 8bit/16bit modeswitching is just really jankily bolted onto what's otherwise a really beautiful system

Feb 08 2022 — 15:52#

wow methylphenidate is very obviously serotonergic, somehow i wasn't expecting that? in general i really hate when people talk about, like "dopamine hits" or "oxytocin" or whatever to medicalize their subjective experiences but at this point i have enough experience with serotonergic drugs to be able to actually recognize a lot of things that are clearly serotonergic in nature, and it's really interesting

Feb 08 2022 — 14:25#

time to take some stimulants!

Feb 07 2022 — 03:35#

it's funny how being a foreigner makes being a weirdo easier in some ways and harder in others. like, in the us i know exactly how i'm a freak and am pretty comfortable with that, whereas here it's harder to tell, which is freeing in some ways but stifling in others

Feb 07 2022 — 02:57#

so anyway instead of doing any one of the half dozen urgent things i've been putting off all week i spent today learning 65816 assembly and the snes architecture...

Feb 06 2022 — 23:00#

thinking about getting super into snes romhacking

Feb 06 2022 — 02:34#

anyway if anyone wants to be my cohost for a podcast that we record and then edit and then throw into a volcano never to be heard by a human soul hmu

Feb 06 2022 — 01:58#

i should have a podcast not so that anyone listens to it but just so i can have an outlet to get whatever deranged internet shit i saw this week out of my brain

Feb 05 2022 — 21:19#

keep thinking about moving back to nyc but then i look at how it has more covid cases per week than taiwan has had ever and uh

Feb 05 2022 — 16:32#

it's really annoying when i switch between projects to remember which ones are Professional projects where i start the commit messages with uppercase letters and which ones are Art projects where i can be hot & commit in all lowercase

Feb 04 2022 — 21:14#

the people at the table next to me are having a very spirited discussion about bdsm in three different languages at once and i'm very sad that i can only really follow one of them :(

Feb 04 2022 — 20:30#

spent all day in ssh today, which is a sort of travel

Feb 02 2022 — 21:06#

thinking about the ambien wife guy

Feb 02 2022 — 20:16#

thinking about how that fully automated book almost could've convinced me that asteroid mining made sense if only they hadn't also written about vegan mayo

Feb 02 2022 — 16:54#

wtf how did i not know that ursula k le guin did a translation of the tao te ching?

Feb 02 2022 — 08:53#

i want a query language that's good enough that no one has to build an interface ever again

Feb 01 2022 — 15:12#

three different times today i've scrolled all the way to the bottom of a really good are.na channel and found a website that i made and lemme tell you it's a real good feeling

Feb 01 2022 — 06:31#

one of the things that makes feeds so rough is that people are really bad at anticipating what things will be like out of context. you can enjoy all of the individual things that make up the feed, but once they're all jumbled together and stripped of context, the aggregate is almost always worse than any of the individual things that made it

Feb 01 2022 — 04:18#

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_lists_of_lists

Jan 31 2022 — 04:42#

you can tell a lot about somebody's personality & mood from how they write their html

Jan 31 2022 — 00:08#

tfw you see a cult and you're like "i could run this better"

Jan 30 2022 — 21:15#

beginning to think that writing may be a doomed medium for what i want to accomplish. perhaps performance art may fare better?

Jan 30 2022 — 16:30#

pretty sure i feel the same way about booktube as boomers feel about streaming

Jan 30 2022 — 11:22#

anyway last night's dreams were good despite being weird and upsetting at times. highlights include:

Jan 30 2022 — 11:12#

fell asleep and read some tweets i wrote in a dream and honestly they're pretty good? surprising

Jan 30 2022 — 06:40#

trying to write about how i aim for "lightness" in everything i do, and about how i'm frustrated that it's felt hard to access lightness in writing recently, and… trying to write about that just immediately pulled in a bunch of ideas and concepts that i feel like i have to write about, and the whole thing just gets tangled up

Jan 29 2022 — 14:16#

beginning to suspect i may have missed my bus back home :(

Jan 29 2022 — 11:03#

taking the hsr! it's so good! electric trains are great!

Jan 29 2022 — 09:55#

going to visit a lighthouse today!

Jan 29 2022 — 00:01#

smooth face mode activated

Jan 28 2022 — 22:03#

it's probably time to shave my beard

Jan 28 2022 — 16:52#

today feels expansive

Jan 28 2022 — 15:17#

successfully avoided going on a rant about rationalists today, please clap

Jan 28 2022 — 14:10#

a wallet is a pretty strange object, philosophically speaking

Jan 27 2022 — 22:45#

got a new body wash and i smell v nice now ^^

Jan 27 2022 — 18:25#

someone should make a taxonomy of all the different kinds of "Tweets & replies" cringe

Jan 27 2022 — 17:57#

got up before 10am and it's still dark out before i even noticed, unfair :(

Jan 26 2022 — 02:33#

"im not trans! im not trans!!", i continue to insist as i slowly install vseeface and transform into a vtuber

Jan 24 2022 — 13:31#

firewood cafe is moving, very sad :'(

Jan 24 2022 — 02:52#

(ok did the thing to fix the stress, now sleep time)

Jan 24 2022 — 02:37#

managed to inflict a truly massive amount of stress on myself from an absolutely tiny thing, hell yeah

Jan 23 2022 — 03:50#

lmao i tried putting on the sleep with me podcast and it extremely backfired this is some of the funniest shit i've ever heard i feel like i'm high

Jan 23 2022 — 03:43#

(oh and btw if melatonin is a placebo please don't go and ruin it for me thx)

Jan 23 2022 — 03:43#

not gonna make the mistake this time! i have taken A SHOWER and some MELATONIN and i am going to GO to BED

Jan 22 2022 — 09:20#

every day at 3am i'm like "i can totally wrap around my sleep schedule it's gonna be fine" and then every day at 11am i'm like uh wait actually maybe i can't

Jan 21 2022 — 19:24#

ugh a great idea came to me in a dream and now i have to do it before i forget

Jan 20 2022 — 19:06#

thought shepherd? thought herder?

Jan 19 2022 — 20:53#

boy, all i did today was Have Feelings

Jan 19 2022 — 16:09#

"never cut towards yourself" is the abstinence only of knife safety

Jan 17 2022 — 00:57#

did u know that i'm really cute & clever ?

Jan 16 2022 — 21:41#

pretty sure being in a unmanaged forest is the closest i've come to a religious experience

Jan 16 2022 — 16:58#

crepe place update: it didn't close it just moved! even closer to me!!

very exciting

Jan 16 2022 — 05:13#

thinking about joining another cult just to see what it's like on the inside

Jan 16 2022 — 05:03#

i wonder if 無 as a gender is a thing

Jan 16 2022 — 02:19#

should go to sleep, but there are a bajillion things i want to do

so instead i will stay awake and do none of them ☺️

Jan 16 2022 — 01:28#

pretty sure that the recurring nightmare i've had most frequently at this point is that i'm travelling internationally but didn't think about or properly do quarantine

(i haven't had it that often, i just don't often have recurring dreams in general)

Jan 14 2022 — 17:05#

CHVRCHES is good biking through taipei music

Jan 13 2022 — 19:15#

thought for a good 30 minutes there that i lost my birth certificate and social security card

Jan 13 2022 — 16:24#

sooooo slpy

Jan 13 2022 — 00:34#

i really wish it was easier for me to trust fiction

Jan 12 2022 — 23:34#

starting to think that anything that shows a "subscriber count" or similar by default is bad technology that should not exist.

Jan 12 2022 — 01:35#

thinking about becoming a paper notebook person again

Jan 10 2022 — 05:05#

keep having dreams with good plots but then walking up while they're only partway through :(

Jan 09 2022 — 23:29#

"risc architecture is gonna change everything"

Jan 09 2022 — 03:23#

it's good to know this version doesn't work either

Jan 08 2022 — 14:59#

y'know, upon basically any reflection at all, it's pretty obvious what that dream meant

Jan 08 2022 — 12:26#

lots of nightmares (?) again today :(

with a theme of like, me treating people badly and then feeling bad about it?

what're u tryin to tell me, brain?

Jan 06 2022 — 22:38#

reorganize ur brain

Jan 06 2022 — 02:17#

thinking about the "YOU BLEED" guy

i hope he's ok

Jan 05 2022 — 23:43#

just put my glasses lens in front of my phone camera to get it to focus on a qr code. the future is dumb.

Jan 05 2022 — 10:08#

anyway i think i'm slowly turning into a "you should strive to personally know the manufacturer of all the things you use" kind of person and uh supply chains are long and complicated

Jan 05 2022 — 10:03#

actually, it seems like both kinds probably give you cancer. so that's cool.

Jan 05 2022 — 09:59#

learning about how jute rope is manufactured and it turns out there are two different types of oil that are used: the type that give you cancer, and the type that smells like kerosene. yay!

Jan 05 2022 — 08:38#

weaving social fabric

maybe darning it?

Jan 04 2022 — 23:11#

tom7 is the this old tony of computers

Jan 04 2022 — 21:46#

break ur togs

Jan 04 2022 — 21:36#

today has really just been a rollercoaster of emotion, huh

Jan 03 2022 — 17:51#

i sorta like earthquakes tbh

Jan 03 2022 — 14:47#

literally all of the technology around me has been breaking way more than usual recently :(

Jan 03 2022 — 14:30#

most insidious part of twitter is how it completely destroyed being earnest tbh. really just almost singlehandedly irony-poisoned an entire generation

Jan 02 2022 — 14:01#

i love watching plants grow. coming back day after day, noticing the miniscule changes adding up over time.

Jan 01 2022 — 22:13#

pretty fucked up that it's 2022 tbh

Jan 01 2022 — 01:32#

i know i love triangle because it's the first place i went clubbing but i love it anyways

Jan 01 2022 — 01:26#

triangle is maybe the best club in the world

Jan 01 2022 — 00:34#

going to triangle because i fucking love bad decisions

Jan 01 2022 — 00:22#

lol literally seconds after i posted that they were like "just go" and waved multiple people through at the same time

Jan 01 2022 — 00:20#

my take is that they should make the mrt free after midnight on the new year

Jan 01 2022 — 00:17#

uh oh i have been infected with Twitter Brain

Dec 31 2021 — 23:57#

it may take me being very drunk to say this but: i am appreciative of tradition. fireworks and celebration are good.

Dec 31 2021 — 22:16#

(guess that's what i get for aiming for a reflective nye)

Dec 31 2021 — 22:15#

thinking about ████ again

if we met each other now, where would we end up?

Dec 31 2021 — 18:31#

gonna aim for a reflective nye, this time

Dec 31 2021 — 17:10#

really gotta figure out that whole replying to people in a timely manner thing :(

Dec 31 2021 — 00:57#

making old year's resolutions (plans for tomorrow)

Dec 30 2021 — 22:07#

people should make things in order to fall in love. there really isn't another reason.

Dec 30 2021 — 15:19#

i know it means a different thing here but it still always is jarring to see swastikas on random signs

Dec 29 2021 — 21:13#

extremely shook that parasite and snowpeircer were directed by the same person

like snowpeircer literally only went as far as "woah dude class systems exist isn't that crazy"

and parasite is really good

what changed???

Dec 29 2021 — 17:05#

fuck maybe i should go to emf

Dec 29 2021 — 13:11#

today will be a writing day

Dec 29 2021 — 06:10#

had a nightmare where i was caught up in some scheme (as a fall guy afaict) that joe rogan was running to import cheap insulin to the us but also i had some sort of degenerative neurological condition which i was just finding out about (or maybe was in some loop where i kept finding out about it and then forgetting about it) and i gotta say it really checked a lot of the boxes of terrifying things

Dec 27 2021 — 15:38#

it's the 27th it's time to cut it out with the christmas music please thank you

Dec 27 2021 — 14:32#

"elsewhere" is such a good name for a place

pretty sure every place called elsewhere is excellent

Dec 27 2021 — 05:20#

5:19am, perfect time to start a large new project

Dec 26 2021 — 23:51#

cozying up alone tonight with some hot chocolate + hazelnut liquor. good to spend some time with myself after so much christmas partying :)

Dec 26 2021 — 10:20#

wow real stressful dreams today huh

Dec 26 2021 — 01:44#

all i want from life is to do a lot of drugs and watch videos of math people being excited about math

Dec 26 2021 — 01:40#

man drugs are fucking great

Dec 25 2021 — 23:23#

playing a drinking game that involves way too much thinking with champagne and it's bad decisions all around

Dec 25 2021 — 22:11#

i sorta knew that coming in but it's still funny now that i'm actually here

Dec 25 2021 — 22:03#

pretty sure everyone at this party is a lesbian except me lol

Dec 24 2021 — 23:32#

today's challenge: get drunk w/o spamming every passing thought to thoughts.page

Dec 24 2021 — 19:31#

gender is fake so rly everyone's queer some people just haven't realized it yet

Dec 24 2021 — 16:29#

the vibe has moved from ghostbusters theme to gucci gang

Dec 24 2021 — 16:22#

lmao this cafe is playing the ghostbusters theme for some reason????

Dec 24 2021 — 14:32#

it must be really nice to be able to live your life without constantly building a index in your head of who's a fascist and who isn't, huh

Dec 23 2021 — 19:13#

the queer christmas party that i'm going to at the leftist magazine space charges more for men than other people and it never ceases to amaze me the places where market-oriented solutions end up 🤔🤔🤔

Dec 23 2021 — 16:34#

the baby in this cafe really likes me

Dec 23 2021 — 16:23#

irefox

Dec 20 2021 — 18:51#

thought i was getting v3s easy on my second time back at the gym but turns out i just forgot the coloring and they're actually v2s 🙃

Dec 20 2021 — 14:46#

i really hope passenger travel on cargo ships comes back, that's the only way i feel like i could morally split time between taiwan and the us

Dec 20 2021 — 12:25#

god fucking damnit how did the l*sswr*ng people seo the asshole filter better than sidera did? :(((

Dec 20 2021 — 11:48#

re: name capitalization, i do think if i ever end up changing my name i'll go lowercase. just feels like the right thing.

Dec 19 2021 — 22:17#

nobody uses signal here and it makes me sad :(

(not even the expats)

Dec 18 2021 — 14:36#

breakfast sandwich rec: two slices of shokupan toasted in a pan with butter, some cheese melted on top (i've been using emmental but you can use whatever you like), kimchi, and an egg. delicious.

Dec 18 2021 — 11:49#

missed the train, looked at the countdown sign, 55 seconds to the next one

i love taiwan

Dec 18 2021 — 04:51#

ok tonight was great but i do just want to make sure i remember the absolutely incredible neg of some french guy saying that it was "so american" that i went to a bar alone

Dec 18 2021 — 04:06#

also, i miss you <3

Dec 18 2021 — 04:06#

clubbing is so good!

Dec 18 2021 — 03:28#

love the energy of lesbians dancing at triangle

Dec 18 2021 — 01:23#

the combination of languages that people are speaking here is heartwarming but also makes me feel so dumb

Dec 17 2021 — 23:55#

lmao i went to a bar and the first random person i met is in the same master's program as someone i accidentally ghosted like a year ago 🤐

Dec 17 2021 — 21:01#

potentially... going to go clubbing?

Dec 17 2021 — 12:21#

i really have too many opinions

Dec 15 2021 — 17:17#

noooooo the best crepe place in shida market closed :(((

Dec 15 2021 — 17:14#

the moon is excellent today

Dec 15 2021 — 10:40#

trying to figure out chinese internet slang makes me feel like such a boomer

Dec 14 2021 — 17:28#

clean clean clean clean clean clean!

Dec 13 2021 — 20:42#

in a big fuck silicon valley mood this evening

Dec 11 2021 — 12:14#

thinking about becoming a mommy blogger

Dec 10 2021 — 07:53#

ideas for a style guide for writing my name:

(full name is always capitalized tho)

Dec 09 2021 — 00:23#

well, it's hitting me that i'm in taiwan

good to be back!

Dec 08 2021 — 17:41#

i may have gotten myself excited too early, though

Dec 08 2021 — 17:32#

getting out of quarantine!!! in 6.5 hours!!

Dec 06 2021 — 10:12#

downside: deep nose pcr test

upside: got to go outside, and it even smelled like rain!

worth it

Dec 06 2021 — 09:56#

i'm gonna get to go outside!

(just for like 5 mins but hey i'll take it)

Dec 01 2021 — 10:37#

maybe the most important requirement for dating someone is that they be good at breaking up

Nov 30 2021 — 23:39#

maybe i'm not as committed to this quarantine beard as i thought i was

Nov 30 2021 — 08:09#

aesthetically i hate minimalism but also i hate having stuff so uh

Nov 29 2021 — 08:27#

idk why i'm surprised that ao3 has 155 results for bdg/patrick gill

Nov 29 2021 — 02:05#

had a nightmare where i opened obsidian and it suddenly had a "messages" feature built in, and then i opened signal and it had a file-storage feature, and honestly that's pretty much what a lot of computer stuff feels like these days

Nov 28 2021 — 00:50#

begging anyone who uses the phrase "let a thousand flowers bloom" to read even a tiny bit of history

Nov 26 2021 — 09:07#

gonna be a real twist ending when "eugenics is bad" ends up being the take that gets me cancelled

Nov 26 2021 — 09:06#

god dammit i think i just trolled myself into writing the thing

Nov 26 2021 — 00:23#

love thinking of random puns and then typing dot tumblr dot com

always good stuff

Nov 24 2021 — 22:37#

thinking about putting sidenotes in my sidenotes. this is a bad plan that i will only resist for the moment because it is so technically difficult :|

Nov 22 2021 — 16:52#

love how the millennium tower looks like a bismuth crystal in the sunset

Nov 22 2021 — 15:45#

my life may be a mess but at least it's a hot mess

Nov 22 2021 — 13:59#

wow cute person swabbing my nose recognized me!

Nov 19 2021 — 01:09#

eclipse good!

Nov 16 2021 — 16:09#

anyone who believes in "days of the week" is just being superstitious if u ask me

Nov 15 2021 — 17:03#

"this is not a great intellectual feat"

Christopher Alexander on A Pattern Language

Nov 15 2021 — 16:57#

ppl r cute

Nov 15 2021 — 19:08#

did all the texting people! feeling very proud!

Nov 14 2021 — 13:35#

bad idea that i want someone to do: cvt bike

Nov 12 2021 — 17:23#

no, you don't understand, the tensile strength of the bubblegum is perfectly sufficient for this application

Nov 11 2021 — 10:58#

i used to think live resin edibles were placebo but lemme tell you having them again after the shitty east coast edibles sure cleared up that confusion

Nov 10 2021 — 20:20#

too much to read, never enough time

Nov 09 2021 — 09:50#

everyone is having an unusual day

Nov 09 2021 — 09:22#

the chances of me making this flight are extremely low

Nov 09 2021 — 09:03#

if i miss my flight because i went one stop too far on the train i will be Unhappy

Nov 08 2021 — 21:32#

i fucking love the g train and no one can take that from me

Nov 08 2021 — 17:48#

r train has some weird vibes

Nov 08 2021 — 09:07#

put on my socks before my pants, that's 無為 according to william burroughs

Nov 07 2021 — 18:43#

thinking a lot about pirates these days

Nov 07 2021 — 12:56#

funny that the downtown f train calls roosevelt island manhattan

Nov 07 2021 — 00:16#

toooooo many thoughts in my brain

Nov 06 2021 — 20:17#

it's honestly nice to interact with people in mono relationships sometimes since it's just so much clearer what the boundaries are

i love making out with my friends but sometimes it's simpler to just not have that on the table, y'know?

Nov 06 2021 — 18:05#

beat prose as linguistic brutalism?

Nov 06 2021 — 16:53#

maybe i should start a religion

Nov 06 2021 — 13:07#

love hanging out in tea shops so much

Nov 06 2021 — 11:25#

nostalgic early morning smell

Nov 06 2021 — 08:55#

just realized that if i want a summer break that means i need to spend the winter working...

i guess i can do that

Nov 05 2021 — 21:42#

thinking about vegan directors not shooting on film because it's gelatin based

Nov 05 2021 — 17:42#

i am also wary

Nov 05 2021 — 10:12#

realizing that sending people messages on the internet is probably one of the highest activation energy things i can do

should probably try to fix that

Nov 04 2021 — 19:39#

plans filling in, nice feeling :)

Nov 04 2021 — 12:32#

time marches forward

Nov 03 2021 — 11:46#

pack for leaving so i'm not super rushed and stressed tomorrow, or spend all day implementing pkcs1.5 rsa padding oracle attack?

difficult decision....

Nov 01 2021 — 18:30#

my calves are prepared for hiking but not for dancing apparently

so sore today

Oct 31 2021 — 23:51#

drunk: REALLY GOOD

Oct 31 2021 — 23:27#

have not been this drunk in a while and it is really excellent!!!

Oct 30 2021 — 15:01#

i Do Not need another blog

Oct 30 2021 — 06:15#

my life feels well paced

Oct 30 2021 — 01:04#

someone wrote today that i "have lots of feelings about kind of obscure things" and i'm feeling simultaneously attacked and seen

Oct 28 2021 — 14:56#

hike was extremely good. didn't even die!

Oct 28 2021 — 09:48#

going on a very dumb hike today. if i don't return, know that i died doing what i loved: making bad decisions

Oct 28 2021 — 02:51#

is compassion the opposite of shame?

Oct 28 2021 — 02:44#

thinking about how legibility politics relates to dating

Oct 27 2021 — 01:15#

cursed to have Opinions

Oct 26 2021 — 12:22#

it's a shame that "cucked" has racist/patriarchal/alt-right connotations since it's such a perfect word to describe the united states

Oct 26 2021 — 00:04#

it's weird to be excited to be back in sf

Oct 25 2021 — 20:48#

people really think they can be anti-capitalist and pro-therapy, huh

Oct 24 2021 — 00:57#

it would be nice to date someone who isn't enamored by my bullshit

Oct 22 2021 — 14:52#

really appreciating how the two main kitchen drawers here are labeled "silly bullshit" and "useful tools"

now that's a good taxonomy

Oct 22 2021 — 13:11#

i think the pandemic broke my voice-recognizing ability?

Oct 21 2021 — 21:10#

guerrilla ontology

Oct 21 2021 — 19:53#

first ever shower beer today. good shit

Oct 19 2021 — 14:45#

makin tools like a fuckin octopus or some shit

Oct 19 2021 — 02:41#

time 2 go open the feels jar

Oct 19 2021 — 00:51#

i forgot how good noodling around on a electric keyboard is! it's really good!

Oct 18 2021 — 23:29#

being drunk is good! i should really do that more

Oct 17 2021 — 15:04#

solutions beget problems

Oct 16 2021 — 10:12#

been feeling really young these days

Oct 15 2021 — 15:42#

brain feels sluggish

Oct 15 2021 — 01:13#

seems incredibly hard to work in data analysis and not turn into a nihilist

Oct 13 2021 — 21:17#

i have so many cute comfy clothes that aren't with me :(

Oct 13 2021 — 13:43#

boy i really don't understand how anything works

Oct 13 2021 — 11:19#

brisk is a good word

Oct 12 2021 — 22:23#

lol @ okc matching me with a bunch of people in sf while i'm in the forest in ny

bit late for that

Oct 12 2021 — 10:00#

nature is so good

Oct 11 2021 — 23:51#

i really should make a alt thoughts.page but that's still ridiculous

Oct 11 2021 — 20:57#

wow people are good!!! very excited to be hanging out with lots of good ones <3

Oct 11 2021 — 13:15#

on amtrak again!!! going upstate!!!

Oct 11 2021 — 10:31#

update: my stuff does not all fit in my suitcase :|

Oct 10 2021 — 23:16#

one funny thing about journaling consistently is that i'm realizing how much of what i do each day i forget by the end of the day

(i guess i knew that from checkins as well but that doesn't really count i don't think)

Oct 10 2021 — 19:00#

oh wait i know why it's because i saved all my packing to the morning that i left 🙃

Oct 10 2021 — 18:46#

current mood: augh why the fuck did i bring so much crap to nyc and how will i get it all to fit back in my suitcase???

Oct 10 2021 — 16:25#

cut my nails super short so i'll actually be able to type again :/

Oct 10 2021 — 13:50#

want more wesley parasocial interaction? u should check out my are.na and pretend like i'm texting u those things

Oct 09 2021 — 19:36#

very stressed out for a very dumb reason

Oct 09 2021 — 13:42#

noticing my self-destructive tendencies so i can lean into them

Oct 09 2021 — 01:26#

for a movie that's so mediocre in general the drone hacking scene in interstellar is so good

Oct 07 2021 — 22:23#

i wonder if there are any good cooperative hidden role games

Oct 07 2021 — 21:08#

being a number theorist just seems so emotionally draining

Oct 07 2021 — 14:34#

wintermelon is so tasty

Oct 06 2021 — 21:50#

really feels like it's impossible for people to talk to each other anymore

Oct 05 2021 — 12:23#

posting cringe is good

Oct 04 2021 — 01:27#

uh oh i'm turning into an audiophile 😬

Oct 03 2021 — 17:25#

so many wedding photoshoots happening today

Oct 03 2021 — 16:39#

ok so this is cringe af but i should really write that thing about megatokyo and kpop as an example of a thing where people's unfounded fears about what the government might do are actually realized by the private sector

Oct 03 2021 — 13:45#

got distracted by books, but NOW it's time to get high

Oct 03 2021 — 11:52#

time to go get high in the park 🙂

Oct 01 2021 — 01:01#

who wants to join a group chat where everyone just posts spoonerisms of random phrases

Sep 30 2021 — 22:39#

still in love with the fact that din tai fung has a neocities website with information about all their art

Sep 30 2021 — 06:41#

taking the acela!

Sep 29 2021 — 15:25#

visiting all my old memories

Sep 29 2021 — 14:09#

hate it when the books at the bookstore are in shrinkwrap :(

Sep 29 2021 — 01:31#

wish i was worse at noticing ideologies

Sep 28 2021 — 22:31#

aesthetic is maybe the only thing that matters in life

Sep 27 2021 — 23:46#

trying to journal again. we'll see if it sticks.

Sep 26 2021 — 18:25#

was gonna eat meat for the first time in like four months but the line at prince st pizza was just too gd long

Sep 26 2021 — 12:36#

once again thinking about becoming a hermit

Sep 24 2021 — 19:07#

chopsticks are underrated

Sep 22 2021 — 13:09#

when i see a labyrinth i have to walk it

that's the rules

Sep 21 2021 — 17:00#

i love giving people directions

Sep 20 2021 — 12:54#

i really want dry shampoo to work but i'm like 80% sure it's a scam

Sep 19 2021 — 13:49#

feeling very satisfied recognizing a lil mandarin in the bubble tea shop today

Sep 19 2021 — 00:42#

another random stranger asked me if i'm jewish today, i never really know how to respond

Sep 18 2021 — 17:48#

there are too many bugs in prospect park

Sep 18 2021 — 07:24#

p r o b l e m a t i c

Sep 17 2021 — 19:12#

today's watching while high experience: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lKiBtsHWWEU

Sep 17 2021 — 17:40#

it's easier to love people when you don't know them

Sep 17 2021 — 17:35#

very impressed with my friend who ended up finding an apartment via tinder hookup

Sep 17 2021 — 11:44#

feeling melancholy about thoughts.page getting posted to hacker news

happy to have more people

sad that they're so many tech people

i want the internet to be more nonsense and feelings and art, and less tech

Sep 17 2021 — 11:23#

nyc is good

Sep 13 2021 — 18:53#

now it's MY TURN to go on a date in dolo and make a bunch of fun quotes for people to hear out of context

Sep 12 2021 — 15:20#

god my life is such a mess

Sep 12 2021 — 02:45#

i can appreciate the self loathing of someone who says they work on "merkle trees" instead of blockchain tbh

like, yeah bro we all get what you're saying but i'm glad you at least realize you should be ashamed of it

Sep 11 2021 — 11:36#

til that my thoughts are "not worth reading"

cool

Sep 09 2021 — 22:36#

iso someone who thinks about things in a beautiful way

Sep 08 2021 — 11:38#

tried to read poetry as scifi, that was a mistake

Sep 06 2021 — 19:52#

thinkin about microdosing estradiol

Sep 06 2021 — 17:10#

that sleep paralysis feeling so nice going into it

Sep 06 2021 — 11:17#

i get the weirdest emails

Sep 05 2021 — 16:02#

wtf how did i not realize that the word subliminal comes from liminal?

Sep 05 2021 — 13:52#

once again mad about The Apps

Sep 05 2021 — 11:48#

i smell like campfire now

good vibes

Sep 03 2021 — 21:18#

OH: "…astral projection" — "in the hospital we call that a dissociative episode"

Sep 03 2021 — 19:17#

how are there only four times on twitter anyone's said "whatever-this-is-pilled"????

Sep 03 2021 — 18:05#

my "do not trust information that comes from eugenicists" rule looking more and more reasonable every day

Sep 02 2021 — 20:40#

once again mad about how beautiful Carmen Maria Machado's writing is

Sep 02 2021 — 11:10#

made the Forbidden Oatmeal today (oatmeal made with oat milk)

v tasty

Aug 30 2021 — 12:02#

i think it's time to go be hot in nyc

Aug 29 2021 — 18:40#

the wikihow aesthetic is incredible

Aug 28 2021 — 14:07#

person at the bubble tea shop told me she was "concerned about me" just because i ordered extra boba AND cheese foam :(((

Aug 27 2021 — 19:29#

god youtube self-driving car propaganda is so awful

Aug 27 2021 — 10:16#

wow didn't realize sqlite3 was in the python stdlib, that rules

Aug 26 2021 — 20:58#

dualist/monist dualist

Aug 26 2021 — 01:37#

everything is going to be ok

Aug 23 2021 — 20:12#

mdma is real good

Aug 22 2021 — 02:32#

TODO: make thoughts.page better for drunk ppl

Aug 22 2021 — 02:29#

douglas hofstadter would fuckin love ratatouille

Aug 22 2021 — 01:59#

i literally always forget how good being drunk is

Aug 22 2021 — 01:04#

wow it turns out kareoke is actually good???? amazing

Aug 21 2021 — 13:43#

maybe i should get a walkman

Aug 21 2021 — 13:40#

i fukin hate spotify

Aug 21 2021 — 12:56#

real walls closing in around me feels rn huh

Aug 20 2021 — 20:09#

that's probably a good sign but also i'm just... extremely not used to it

Aug 20 2021 — 20:09#

wow felt more awkward today than i have in a LONG time

Aug 18 2021 — 11:33#

aaaaaaaaaaaa got a bajillion things happening at once

Aug 17 2021 — 16:12#

why are phlebotomists always so cute?? unfair

Aug 16 2021 — 23:28#

wow i love it when people ask for what they want 🥰

Aug 16 2021 — 22:48#

bdg fancuts so good

Aug 16 2021 — 19:59#

tried to blow vape smoke out my window but it blew right back into my face instead :(

Aug 16 2021 — 17:41#

always good when you google the ingredients and the first result is pubchem

Aug 15 2021 — 04:14#

really annoying when people say that a tax credit is literally giving people money :/ those are different things!

Aug 15 2021 — 04:04#

the new youtube clip feature is basically all the bad parts of xanadu

Aug 15 2021 — 03:20#

thinking about how to structure my life more deliberately.

i feel like maybe summer break is important?

Aug 15 2021 — 01:36#

ugh people write so well

Aug 14 2021 — 11:16#

restmore

Aug 11 2021 — 11:30#

augh i can be real garbage sometimes

Aug 09 2021 — 18:56#

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Category:Causes_of_death

Aug 09 2021 — 14:16#

outside is Good

Aug 09 2021 — 10:49#

the 2°C IPCC thing must really be confused by americans not understanding what celsius is, huh

Aug 07 2021 — 14:11#

really annoying how siderea keeps being right

Aug 05 2021 — 17:55#

pretty sure figuring out how to shower is one of the main blockers for living a fulfilling life for me

Aug 05 2021 — 15:55#

thinking about making an alt thoughts.page but that's ridiculous

Aug 04 2021 — 13:18#

perfecting the listicle form

Aug 04 2021 — 13:10#

apparently we've reached the point in hot vaxxed summer where all anyone in my social circles is thinking about is kink stuff

Aug 03 2021 — 22:31#

they should do a baking show where the contestants and judges are all high

Aug 02 2021 — 23:19#

honestly fucked up how nice being drunk feels

Aug 02 2021 — 22:01#

dark and stormy with squirt instead of ginger beer: better than i expected

Aug 02 2021 — 19:04#

i knew that before but i forgot

Aug 02 2021 — 19:04#

wow tying people up is fun

Aug 02 2021 — 14:06#

we need language to talk about bounded vs non-bounded spectrums

Aug 02 2021 — 13:19#

damn they really put all the bangers at the end of Vessel huh

Aug 01 2021 — 11:49#

if nothing else, the collapse of the american empire will really simplify my international tax situation

Jul 31 2021 — 18:01#

carmen maria machado is so good

Jul 31 2021 — 14:57#

i want every flavor of tea :(

Jul 31 2021 — 14:46#

OH: "i wanna post on instagram and not give a fuck"

Jul 30 2021 — 12:15#

i made a thing that i'm super happy with but will also 100% get me sued if i share it widely and i'm real sad about it

Jul 30 2021 — 11:48#

aesthetics

Jul 29 2021 — 03:47#

"executive function" is a funny name for it 'cause actual executives have assistants to deal with all thta

Jul 27 2021 — 12:38#

markets are incompatible with freedom

Jul 26 2021 — 02:11#

luv 2 b stressed

Jul 23 2021 — 21:40#

if u don't think ur problems can't see u

Jul 23 2021 — 12:24#

i wanna be a hagfish and tie my body in a knot to scratch all my itches at once

Jul 22 2021 — 18:32#

fuck i miss new york

Jul 21 2021 — 17:58#

so many books, so little time

Jul 21 2021 — 17:07#

pretty fucked up that i only got taught about the kkk as a thing that happened in the past when like... it's still around today

Jul 21 2021 — 14:11#

The tradition of all dead generations weighs like a nightmare on the brains of the living.

Jul 20 2021 — 23:28#

a song is a type of idea

Jul 20 2021 — 22:38#

drugs r good

Jul 20 2021 — 00:39#

a little salmonella, as a treat

Jul 19 2021 — 18:47#

it seems vitally important that i resist the urge to open a bookstore

Jul 19 2021 — 15:50#

pandemic nostalgia is gonna be a hell of a thing

Jul 19 2021 — 10:38#

i guess succubi probably can't help it

Jul 16 2021 — 16:02#

voronoi people

Jul 16 2021 — 13:55#

upside down kisses are optimal

Jul 10 2021 — 21:03#

just saw someone in a incredibly aesthetic goth getup sitting with & talking frustratedly with a normie dude who i very much hope is getting dumped tonight

Jul 08 2021 — 15:18#

why is mulled wine only a christmas/new year thing? it's so good

Jul 08 2021 — 14:29#

spreadsheets are peak computer

Jul 06 2021 — 11:46#

this cafe is playing real hype up music for 11:30am

Jul 05 2021 — 22:00#

boring!

Jul 03 2021 — 17:26#

in the land of tiny $18 zines

Jul 03 2021 — 00:19#

made out with a stranger!!!

Jun 27 2021 — 23:09#

ok so i know this is Problematic but when is bill wurtz gonna come out?

Jun 27 2021 — 23:07#

vegan gummies have merits

Jun 22 2021 — 07:41#

"it's ridiculous in there" — evy on my brain

Jun 21 2021 — 10:30#

friendly earthquake

Jun 19 2021 — 15:05#

best buy's ontology is so fucked up

Jun 18 2021 — 20:02#

consensus but if you disagree take it to sortition: the perfect decisionmaking structure

Jun 18 2021 — 16:42#

san francisco is such a garbage city traffic design wise

like cmon no one is having a good time here

Jun 18 2021 — 14:07#

augh fuckin ssl certs

Jun 16 2021 — 22:16#

someone needs to make a code review tool that's actually good and also integrates with github

Jun 15 2021 — 22:56#

the thing about inventing a guy is that like 80% of the time he exists

Jun 15 2021 — 18:42#

i don't know why 4 hour youtube videos are suddenly a thing, but i Don't Like It.

Jun 15 2021 — 16:55#

a meme is when something doesn't make sense

Jun 13 2021 — 10:22#

computer bad phone bad

Jun 08 2021 — 19:20#

stepped in front of a car on purpose since i thought it was self driving but it turns out it was actually just a dude in a SUV with some shit strapped to the roof rack and now i feel bad

Jun 07 2021 — 16:52#

pretty sure i'm turning boring

Jun 07 2021 — 14:44#

had a bunch of caffeine and no food mrah

Jun 06 2021 — 17:00#

parks are so good

May 25 2021 — 11:08#

anthropogenically introduced species as xrisk?

打麻雀运动 shows significant negative impacts even without introducing new species, once a foreign species is introduced that creates a feedback loop that can be impossible to stop

monocropping is a significant source of tail risk here

do people still worry about locusts? why or why not?

May 22 2021 — 03:14#

combat anthropology

May 19 2021 — 18:29#

don't you think it matters when we wish our friends the best?

May 10 2021 — 18:42#

why haven't they made another bisexual season of are you the one? ridiculous.

May 09 2021 — 13:32#

some friends of mine moved to my neighborhood recently, and i just ran into one of them at a cafe and it feels so nice! having local friends is real good :)

May 05 2021 — 21:48#

thinking about becoming a reply guy

May 02 2021 — 14:12#

if you water a plant with tea, is that cannibalism?

Apr 30 2021 — 23:04#

cleaned my bathroom! ✨

Apr 30 2021 — 17:08#

contrarian take: the weather is a excellent topic of conversation

Apr 27 2021 — 05:50#

thinking about masculinity and domesticity

Apr 26 2021 — 23:12#

gotta make some aliases

Apr 25 2021 — 01:20#

thinking about trying to be a famous youtube commenter

Apr 24 2021 — 19:05#

overhearing conversations on the train is so much fun

Apr 22 2021 — 19:56#

getting used to the rhythms of taipei

Apr 14 2021 — 17:30#

i should really launch thoughts.page for real, but it's scary :|

Apr 14 2021 — 14:45#

i am DOING an ERRAND!

Apr 10 2021 — 22:52#

put my brain in a weird state again

Apr 10 2021 — 17:25#

dongmen is so cozy

Apr 10 2021 — 12:46#

i wanna send songs back and forth with someone

Apr 09 2021 — 00:32#

home is where you host your servers

Apr 08 2021 — 14:25#

regarding my previous thought, i would like to clarify that scientists are fundamentally hot.

Apr 07 2021 — 22:59#

i wanna date a hot scientist

Apr 07 2021 — 22:32#

ok, all set up on thoughts.page now :)

Apr 06, 2021 — 12:43 #

theater like a play, or theater like a war?

Mar 31, 2021 — 13:56 #

i have three chat apps installed with green icons and that is Too Many

Mar 30, 2021 — 21:02 #

timezones are such a nightmare

Mar 30, 2021 — 13:02 #

two tone sirens are so good

Mar 29, 2021 — 21:55 #

the cafe that’s open to midnight was closed, so i found one that’s open until 4am instead 😮

Mar 29, 2021 — 17:46 #

unreasonably happy today tbh

Mar 26, 2021 — 03:02 #

what’s the opposite of forever?

Mar 24, 2021 — 21:06 #

i think the people next to me in this restaurant are on a date and it’s very cute :)

Mar 21, 2021 — 17:03 #

i’m not hungry but i want to eat

Mar 20, 2021 — 16:38 #

beautiful weather today

Mar 16, 2021 — 17:00 #

can i still talk to normal people? tune in for the exciting conclusion!

Mar 13, 2021 — 17:37 #

a thing can have more than one cause

Mar 11, 2021 — 23:03 #

h y p e r

Mar 11, 2021 — 17:22 #

new life goal:

disappear from the internet

Mar 11, 2021 — 17:17 #

:(

Mar 11, 2021 — 12:47 #

cops if your quick

Mar 11, 2021 — 01:22 #

my sinuses were clogged for like 5 minutes after i woke up from a nap and it’s actually so good, i get to ride the high of the feeling of my sinuses NOT being clogged for hours afterwards

Mar 07, 2021 — 15:12 #

thinking about corduroy bedsheets

Mar 06, 2021 — 18:39 #

the nice part about having a tiny apartment is that it’s super easy to clean

Mar 06, 2021 — 01:18 #

brainfeel

Mar 05, 2021 — 19:02 #

languages are so interesting!

Mar 04, 2021 — 07:42 #

i am easily enticed by dictionaries

Feb 28, 2021 — 01:20 #

the freaky thing about potato chips in taiwan is they taste exactly like the picture on the package

Feb 27, 2021 — 18:56 #

thinking about how i say “new york” when people ask me where i’m from.

Feb 21, 2021 — 15:14 #

golden gate park is the ideal park imo

Feb 20, 2021 — 03:15 #

honestly fucked up the number of people’s voices i recognize

Feb 20, 2021 — 01:32 #

i would like to understand LA

Feb 17, 2021 — 23:36 #

was feeling bad for a while, but i think i’m starting to feel better now. things are good.

Feb 13, 2021 — 22:54 #

honestly unfair that you can’t just take one big shower every week and just keep being clean

Feb 05, 2021 — 20:38 #

oh no mosquito bite on the sole of my foot :(((

Feb 04, 2021 — 22:20 #

hi <3

a photo of my reflection, as i lie on my bed.

Jan 31, 2021 — 15:59 #

making a spreadsheet, hell yeah

Jan 25, 2021 — 12:12 #

dns-blocked a bunch of the bad attention sucking websites on my computer, and disabled the apps on my phone. feels nice, although idk how long i’ll be able to make it last.

Jan 21, 2021 — 09:57 #

bring back http basic auth

Jan 21, 2021 — 02:51 #

all money is free money

Jan 18, 2021 — 17:38 #

i just really love networks

Jan 17, 2021 — 14:57 #

thinking about the metrocard aardvark

Jan 10, 2021 — 05:36 #

v i b i n g

Jan 07, 2021 — 02:30 #

love 2 feel bad

Jan 02, 2021 — 20:05 #

one of the few things i miss from america are the enormous cups

Dec 28, 2020 — 21:04 #

excited to get a new taipei city library card! they have a 24-hour lounge/study area apparently, super excited to check it out!

Dec 27, 2020 — 15:59 #

mao zedong thot

Dec 26, 2020 — 14:21 #

mushrooms are nice because they’re both philosophically pleasing and delicious

Dec 26, 2020 — 00:31 #

really loving how many japanese-style bakeries there are in taiwan. and taiyaki from street stands, yum :)

Dec 23, 2020 — 15:42 #

my new umbrella has a light blue underside, as though i should pretend the skies aren’t grey.

Dec 20, 2020 — 15:40 #

who is supporting who?

Dec 18, 2020 — 18:35 #

til that there isn’t a landmass at the north pole? i thought there was, no idea how that got into my head.

Dec 17, 2020 — 18:47 #

started closing on an apartment wow!

Dec 16, 2020 — 12:22 #

wow it feels so bizzare and good to be in a coffeeshop

Dec 14, 2020 — 19:50 #

a text adventure game but all of the items are described in the style of Amazon product names

Dec 13, 2020 — 19:22 #

currently flirting with someone on a dating app exclusively by sending gifs back and forth and it is StReSsFuL

Dec 10, 2020 — 23:06 #

wow big earthquake tonight. biggest i’ve ever felt, even growing up in cali

Dec 09, 2020 — 09:32 #

about to go outside for the fisrt time in two weeks hooray!

Dec 08, 2020 — 00:16 #

just under 24 hours until i can leave my hotel room 😮

Dec 06, 2020 — 12:24 #

thinking about how to build spaces for thinking together

Dec 05, 2020 — 22:16 #

slowly orbiting around something good

Dec 04, 2020 — 01:00 #

i am a dumb

Dec 03, 2020 — 15:08 #

i would really like to go outside

Dec 03, 2020 — 04:04 #

ooof stayin up tooo laaattteee

Dec 03, 2020 — 00:32 #

thinking about whether an indie dating site is possible. i used to think it wasn’t, but i’m leaning the other way now. just gotta shift around what your goals are.

Nov 30, 2020 — 21:09 #

hot take: complaining about art is inherently a category of art

Nov 28, 2020 — 20:33 #

love 2 shave those yaks

Nov 28, 2020 — 18:21 #

i cut my fingernails too short and now typing feels weird :(

Nov 26, 2020 — 16:11 #

it’s weird that the clouds look the same in taipei as they do in san francisco

Nov 25, 2020 — 14:52 #

getting really excited to be working on making a better world

Nov 25, 2020 — 09:02 #

a view of several buildings in taipei, showing some balconies with plants on them

Nov 24, 2020 — 13:53 #

hello, taipei

Nov 22, 2020 — 23:08 #

heading to taipei. feels weird.

Nov 19, 2020 — 13:37 #

clouds are pretty

Nov 19, 2020 — 10:23 #

in the liminal space of moving. i do not like it.

Nov 17, 2020 — 22:59 #

fondly remembering taking the bus up to manchester, NH, having a stranger recognize me by my tshirt, and going to red arrow diner with them

Nov 16, 2020 — 18:51 #

saw a flock of around 100 crows envelop the top of salesforce tower today

Nov 16, 2020 — 18:42 #

Nov 16, 2020 — 08:44 #

my phone screen got cracked and i have no idea how it happened :(

Nov 14, 2020 — 23:05 #

idea for a game: a RPG mimicking real life, where you play as a random person, your starting location/profession/social standing drawn out of a distribution reflecting that of all humans on earth.

Nov 10, 2020 — 18:25 #

i have a new mole on my neck and it is Annoying

Nov 09, 2020 — 12:07 #

i had so much caffeine and i’m still tired -.-

Nov 08, 2020 — 17:07 #

i got caught out in the rain for the first time this season. i love california’s version of cold weather — not cold enough to be really miserable, but just enough to make coming inside after a long walk feel really cozy. it’s nostalgic as well, which makes it doubly cozy.

Nov 05, 2020 — 12:14 #

got some rollerblades. went two miles, only fell on my ass twice, pretty good imo.

Oct 26, 2020 — 19:06 #

i had a bunch of caffeine today and it’s extremely good

Oct 19, 2020 — 11:30 #

interesting that bubble tea has the reverse of a normal heat gradient — the hot boba is at the bottom, while the ice floats to the top.

Oct 18, 2020 — 22:52 #

thinking about the process of commodification

Oct 08, 2020 — 23:28 #

feeling really good; fighting to make sure it stays that way while i have the energy

Oct 08, 2020 — 12:54 #

considering becoming the sort of person who uses my custom spaced repetition system to remind me to shower

Oct 07, 2020 — 16:25 #

i’m always surprised when physically large things aren’t extremely expensive

Oct 07, 2020 — 11:16 #

it’s sorta fun how i made this thoughts page right after covid started happening, like a little diary of my isolation time

Oct 06, 2020 — 11:17 #

thinking about “how do you know if someone is a vegan? they’ll tell you” as one of the most blindingly obvious and annoying examples of sampling bias

Oct 06, 2020 — 01:30 #

do i remember who i am? does anyone? we’re all mirrors, in one way or another.

Oct 04, 2020 — 22:36 #

this covid shit really sucks

Oct 01, 2020 — 13:59 #

gonna start calling cinnamon rolls bread rollups

Sep 30, 2020 — 12:05 #

“are you morally obligated to feel X” is such a bizarre question

Sep 28, 2020 — 18:16 #

hmm i wonder why i feel bad it couldn’t possibly be that i had a bunch of caffeine and barely any food today

Sep 28, 2020 — 11:52 #

thinking about how good the TMBG wiki is

Sep 26, 2020 — 11:12 #

trying to think of a definition of a state that categorizes the united states government as a state, but doesn’t categorize google or the NRA as a state, and also is coherent with typical libertarian arguments about private organizations being more effective than states

Sep 25, 2020 — 22:57 #

kcal/hectare-day is such a strange unit

Sep 25, 2020 — 20:26 #

man it seems like there’s rat drama happening and i sort of want to know what’s going on but also really don’t

Sep 23, 2020 — 22:13 #

i’m pretty sure that the concept of eggs going bad is fake

Sep 22, 2020 — 16:52 #

aw man the usps site is down :(

Sep 21, 2020 — 13:14 #

well today is just the most completely detached from reality day yet, thats cool

Sep 16, 2020 — 23:46 #

managed to put my brain in an extremely weird state

Sep 16, 2020 — 00:45 #

i definitly have a twitter crush and this seems bad but i’m just gonna lean into it

Sep 14, 2020 — 23:03 #

my new and Extremely Good music organization system is just keeping a bunch of bandcamp and youtube tabs that people have sent me in a browser tab and randomly ruffling through it whenever i want to listen to something

Sep 13, 2020 — 14:04 #

cleaning the fridge has a really great effort/reward tradeoff

Sep 12, 2020 — 17:08 #

considering advocating for a new all-ice-cream diet

Sep 10, 2020 — 22:27 #

my perception of time, on a micro scale, is completely fucked up. not sure if this is new or not.

Sep 10, 2020 — 11:16 #

i made a bunch of cornbread but then i ate it all and now i don’t have any more and i’m sad

Sep 08, 2020 — 14:15 #

wow boba guys in hayes valley is just straight up not very good? i miss gong cha :(

Aug 23, 2020 — 23:25 #

thinking about explicitly being vegetarian (sans gelatin, rennet, and maybe some fish-based sauces, probably)

Aug 23, 2020 — 21:39 #

pretty fucked up that san francisco is like… 50 square miles

Aug 23, 2020 — 21:14 #

family-owned businesses are just nepotism with a positive connotation

Aug 18, 2020 — 22:18 #

oh i guess i should update the timezone for thoughts! now in pacific time :)

Aug 19, 2020 — 01:13 #

not having a microwave is really annoying. microwaves must’ve been an absolute gamechanger for leftovers.

Aug 18, 2020 — 15:08 #

thinking about how taking your own advice can often be a bad idea — it’s easy to have advice that’s very useful for most people, but the reason you have that advice is because you implement it too much in an extreme. being extreme about it allows you to see very clearly the effects of the advice, but it can often have negative effects that implementing a less extreme version wouldn’t have.

Aug 17, 2020 — 19:10 #

TIL that “peewee” is an official egg size according to the USDA

Aug 14, 2020 — 18:17 #

spending a bunch of money on cooking supplies and realizing that it comes out to the same as like… 2 weeks of getting delivery every day

Aug 14, 2020 — 14:14 #

i really want my bike to arrive in SF :(

Aug 13, 2020 — 21:47 #

i guess they still do happen? but it seems like they aren’t what they once were.

Aug 13, 2020 — 21:42 #

i wish world fairs were still a thing

Aug 06, 2020 — 13:56 #

2020 is folding my laundry for the month and only finding four pairs of socks

Aug 06, 2020 — 07:10 #

youtube drama channels are tabloids for zoomers and honestly i love it

Jul 29, 2020 — 21:40 #

i want reaction videos to the big tech congressional hearing to be a thing

Jul 29, 2020 — 03:27 #

hyped for the 2020 census results tbh

Jul 28, 2020 — 00:34 #

contemplating the symbolism of cleaning your glasses

Jul 27, 2020 — 17:03 #

fucking love it when i get to use nyquist sampling theorem tbh

Jul 26, 2020 — 00:05 #

a moth just kissed my head

Jul 25, 2020 — 21:42 #

thinking a lot about games that give you a real choice in actions, but manage to invert the moral polarity of the actions that you’ve taken by withholding/showing given bits of information later. can this be done well in a way where there is truly no canonically “true” interpretation, where all information is mistrusted? it seems hard, we have a bias towards believing information that is revealed later in stories over information that is revealed at the beginning. maybe subverting that by having a cliche twist reveal, then having a second reveal that makes the first one clearly false would communicate a similar idea?

not really, though. i want to communicate that any action could be morally correct given the right viewpoint, making all options unsatisfying.

maybe that’s a bit mean, though.

Jul 25, 2020 — 07:52 #

i listened in
yes i’m guilty of this, you should know this
i broke down and wrote you back before you had a chance to
forget forgotten
i am moving past this, giving notice
i have to go
yes i know the feeling, know you’re leaving

Jul 24, 2020 — 04:30 #

honestly amazed at the sheer number of different ways that minecraft villagers manage to be problematic

Jul 21, 2020 — 01:53 #

there is one good scene in Interstellar (2014) like 15 minutes in when they chase the drone in their car and hack it, and the entire movie is downhill from there. but that scene is so good.

Jul 20, 2020 — 17:06 #

hair dryer reviews are funny because the best-case scenario is there are 50 reviews that are like “this is great” and like three that are like “two stars: best hair dryer i’ve ever use, but after two months of use it started an electrical fire and burned down my entire house”

Jul 20, 2020 — 04:16 #

tbh, it’s astonishing to me that kanye is only polling at 2%

Jul 19, 2020 — 23:19 #

making funny noises at someone back and forth is basically like having sex

Jul 19, 2020 — 01:52 #

apparently custom ASMR videos where the person says your name is a thing and i looked one up that has my name and it feels Extremely Weird

Jul 18, 2020 — 23:01 #

i discovered that you can change out the nosepads on glasses for nicer ones and this is absolutely lifechanging

Jul 18, 2020 — 02:51 #

reading a bunch of democratic party bylaws today, it’s fucking committees all the way down

Jul 17, 2020 — 22:53 #

you know you’ve fucked up when you start thinking about writing an open letter…

Jul 17, 2020 — 20:58 #

i came up with a really good tweet but it’s about a thing that happened like 3 years ago so i can’t tweet it :(

Jul 16, 2020 — 03:02 #

thoughts got a glow-up :)

Jul 16, 2020 — 01:46 #

been having so many dreams-within-dreams recently. wonder what’s up with that.

Jul 15, 2020 — 11:28 #

i’ve been running a git checkout for the past 5 hours…

Jul 15, 2020 — 03:22 #

“research” vs “exploration”

different things, easy to confuse.

Jul 14, 2020 — 02:48 #

i’m becoming a person who cares about typography and it’s terrible

Jul 14, 2020 — 02:17 #

tbh it’s pretty unfair that docs only look queer on women

Jul 11, 2020 — 16:25 #

massive spike in “what the hell am i doing with my life everything is a terrible decision” recently. do not recommend.

Jul 11, 2020 — 05:04 #

i’m reading a bunch of studies on tool use in animals and it’s really great when they mention that a particular animal doesn’t appear to take into account some property of a tool when trying to determine which tool to use and then they also just casually mention at the very end that humans also fail the same test

Jul 10, 2020 — 03:15 #

“knowledge worker” but “knowledge criminal” instead

Jul 10, 2020 — 03:04 #

there have been an alarming number of bugs in my house recently

Jul 06, 2020 — 18:15 #

thinking about how the “nyc is digging mass graves because of the number of deaths from coronavirus” news cycle was like two days then everybody stopped talking about it

Jul 06, 2020 — 01:35 #

nothing quite like looking at housing in san francisco to remind you what an absolute nightmare world we live in

Jul 03, 2020 — 20:30 #

a little annoyed at how hard it is to build a singlethreaded web server in rust

Jul 03, 2020 — 19:02 #

we’ve got a long way to go with this whole computer thing

Jul 02, 2020 — 18:30 #

auuuughhh why the hell did i decide to listen to this clubhouse audio

Jul 02, 2020 — 07:28 #

i biked 38 miles today.

upper manhattan is very pretty.

Jul 01, 2020 — 15:01 #

til my daily bike ride is 6 miles. that’s a lot longer than i thought!

Jun 30, 2020 — 15:32 #

i bought 7 tshirts online (all the same shirt from the same store) and they shipped them as one order of one shirt and one order of 6 shirts, scheduled to arrive on the same day.

why.

Jun 28, 2020 — 19:04 #

<3 thunder

Jun 27, 2020 — 13:54 #

i’m gonna see a friend in person for the first time in many months! very exciting.

Jun 25, 2020 — 18:17 #

wow, i just feel really bad. that’s cool.

Jun 25, 2020 — 02:13 #

really got a lot of whiplash from being prepared for a nice chill social hangout and instead getting several hours of stressful work

Jun 25, 2020 — 01:49 #

feeling lonely and running through my list of people to call, each one an even worse idea than the previous

Jun 23, 2020 — 17:31 #

also, SSC is definitely one of those acronyms that has multiple very different meanings :p

Jun 23, 2020 — 17:29 #

i’m really amused by the SSC discourse, but really should not comment on it…

Jun 23, 2020 — 15:25 #

why on earth do i ever answer my phone, it’s never something good

Jun 21, 2020 — 23:02 #

i want to go for a nightime bike ride but my bike lights don’t arrive for another two days :(

Jun 21, 2020 — 16:15 #

face mask selfies are cute, tbh

Jun 18, 2020 — 17:23 #

bikes are so good

Jun 18, 2020 — 14:26 #

something i miss dearly about going to physical grocery stores is being able to select my avocados so that they’ll ripen one after the other, and i’ll always have an avocado that’s just the right amount of ripe.

Jun 18, 2020 — 07:02 #

thinking about the aesthetics of privacy of your image/voice vs data - cameras and microphones are viscerally creepy, other forms of data collection aren’t. does it make sense to weight the things that are visceral as highly as we do? i can see how it would, but it’s hard to think about.

Jun 15, 2020 — 12:34 #

the problem with living in NYC is that any impulse purchase i want to make can be justified with “well, it’s only N weeks of rent”

Jun 13, 2020 — 13:37 #

increasingly looking like NYC had a ""“competent”"" coronavirus response compared to everywhere else in the US which is just fucking horrifying

Jun 13, 2020 — 12:06 #

i really do not get how Matthew Yglesias became a thing

Jun 13, 2020 — 01:18 #

so apparently all of the not feeling anything for the past three months was just saving it all up for today

Jun 11, 2020 — 02:57 #

tbh really not looking forward to anarchism suddenly being in vogue

Jun 10, 2020 — 02:41 #

i am not smart

Jun 06, 2020 — 22:03 #

well it’s nice to remember what working hard is like. been a solid like 3 years since i’ve done this.

Jun 06, 2020 — 13:03 #

ahhh, the “lay around naked until i finally get around to getting an air conditioner” part of the summer

Jun 05, 2020 — 01:43 #

i just wanna make out with my friends again

Jun 04, 2020 — 19:11 #

ramekin is a pretty fucked up word. that’s all.

Jun 02, 2020 — 17:12 #

my beard is long enough that i can stick a comb in it and it just sits there

Jun 01, 2020 — 14:53 #

i love that “zoomer” is unironically a thing now

Jun 01, 2020 — 00:37 #

luv 2 see notifications that my friends are on signal. fuck em up.

May 31, 2020 — 15:23 #

took a walk through downtown brooklyn today. surprised at how normal everything feels.

May 31, 2020 — 13:44 #

ugh, my bike got stolen :(

i hope whoever took it needs it more, but also just ugh, this means i’m going to need to wait a lot longer before i can bike again :( :(

May 31, 2020 — 02:35 #

i don’t know if what i’m doing is helping, but at least it’s something.

May 30, 2020 — 04:50 #

feeling hopeful for the first time in a while

May 30, 2020 — 01:19 #

well, seems like no more 2am walks for a little while

May 29, 2020 — 16:38 #

the way that youtube sponsorships have destroyed the concept of having a conclusion in a lot of video essays is really sad to me

May 28, 2020 — 19:45 #

i’m really, really tired, and i don’t know why. have a few hypothesises but really not looking forward to having to go figure out wtf my body is doing.

May 28, 2020 — 03:14 #

i found out a very funny thing today but i can’t share it anywhere :(

May 28, 2020 — 00:01 #

i think the way to fix twitter is to just immediately and permanently ban anyone with more than 1k followers

May 27, 2020 — 23:37 #

i feel like the ""“patronage”"" model is pretty fucked up in a ton of ways, but also it seems reasonable to work in the system that exists? idk

May 27, 2020 — 22:39 #

thinking about just paying some writers i like to write things and making a little book/magazine of it? i think that this is not actually very expensive for a tech person to do, i sort of wonder why there isn’t more of this.

May 26, 2020 — 16:38 #

my bike shipped! super excited :)

May 26, 2020 — 13:16 #

i really wish lobste.rs was better than it is

May 26, 2020 — 01:30 #

taking a vitamin d pill at night feels wrong, because vitamin d is sunlight and it’s dark outside and i should be sleeping

May 26, 2020 — 00:31 #

ok i did the thing

May 25, 2020 — 23:38 #

when will google let me give them money to just never see the recommended youtube videos

May 24, 2020 — 00:31 #

huh, did a double take seeing a “log in with TikTok” button for the first time today

May 23, 2020 — 15:24 #

my bag of sour patch kids had a piece of licorice in it by accident, and licorice covered with citric acid is actually pretty tasty

May 23, 2020 — 14:05 #

my pile of books is somewhat overwhelming

May 23, 2020 — 02:21 #

luckily two decades of toxic masculinity has made burying my feelings instead of talking about them pretty easy, so i’ve got that going for me

May 23, 2020 — 02:03 #

so it turns out that all the people who i can call up when i’m sad go to bed at fuckin 8pm

May 22, 2020 — 22:25 #

!!!

May 22, 2020 — 13:15 #

:(

May 22, 2020 — 07:40 #

haven’t slept which definitely means it’s time for caffeine

May 21, 2020 — 15:21 #

i cleaned my glasses for the first time in months and it was a truly magical experience

May 21, 2020 — 14:25 #

https://www.sheldonbrown.com/ is so good

May 21, 2020 — 12:47 #

the distinction between knowing what you’re getting yourself into and realizing what you’re getting yourself into is underappreciated

May 20, 2020 — 18:16 #

way too tempted to just write my own rust web framework

May 20, 2020 — 16:03 #

using comparisons to cars when talking about risks should be banned

May 19, 2020 — 16:05 #

everybody complains that lisp has too many parens, but then they freak out when you go full RPN

May 18, 2020 — 12:00 #

starting to think that telling people to only pay attention to reputable sources has resulted in people turning their brains off when they are reading things on reputable sources.
reputable sources can be (and in fact, often are) wrong!

May 15, 2020 — 22:18 #

i want to socialize more but i’m so tired

May 15, 2020 — 17:17 #

ugh i’m so tired

May 15, 2020 — 17:12 #

https://hanabi.site is online :)

May 15, 2020 — 00:44 #

i used the word “extant” in a sentence that wasn’t contrived and i feel very fancy

May 15, 2020 — 00:05 #

starting to think that the web has reached two local maxima during its entire existence: GeoCities, and jQuery.

May 14, 2020 — 05:37 #

oops i forgot to sleep :(

May 12, 2020 — 01:07 #

i want to make a webring

May 12, 2020 — 00:00 #

i’m really glad that i decided to do NGW things

May 11, 2020 — 02:51 #

amazed at how long the “a little X, as a treat” meme has stuck around

May 11, 2020 — 02:31 #

random 2am thoughts:


the utility that i get from a book is not reduced by a book having factually incorrect information, so when i review a book for other people, factually incorrect information only is bad if it paints a story i don’t like. this seems ok to me.

things in the US seem like they could get very bad very quickly? i think when considering bad outcomes in the US i’ve been overestimating the likelihood of economic collapse (still very likely), and underestimating the likelihood of other bad things, which are less globally correlated than economic collapse.

legibility politics is something that i want to think about a lot more. there seem like there are really fundamental connections here with language and power and other things that i’ve spent a lot of time thinking about.

May 10, 2020 — 20:36 #

hmmmmm is it time to retreat from all human contact again?

May 10, 2020 — 14:11 #

food should cost a lot more than it does

May 07, 2020 — 12:03 #

ok i gueeessss i maybe have a couple crushes on internet people? imo that doesn’t really count though.

May 07, 2020 — 11:57 #

it’s international tell your crush day and somehow i don’t think i have any crushes right now? i blame the pandemic :(

May 06, 2020 — 14:27 #

disappointed that you technically can’t send an A3 zine through the mail as a postcard (it’s too thick, so it counts as a letter)

May 06, 2020 — 12:57 #

TIL that “Mailpiece Design Analyst” is a job

May 04, 2020 — 13:37 #

ok it was too weird i changed back

May 04, 2020 — 13:33 #

wearing a different pair of clothes than i usually do for the first time in more than two months. feels weird.

May 04, 2020 — 00:06 #

weird feeling when someone meets me and my brother (separately) and their first question is “so, uh, what was your upbringing like?”

May 03, 2020 — 22:50 #

adding a book to my reading list just because the title has been stuck in my head since it first came out a year ago

May 03, 2020 — 22:45 #

fuck i miss climbing

May 03, 2020 — 14:20 #

aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh it’s finally reading outside in the hammock weather

(probably has been for a while, and i just hadn’t noticed since i’m not going out during the daytime)

Apr 30, 2020 — 02:19 #

pretty convinced that “minimalist” software just means software that’s written by an asshole

Apr 29, 2020 — 12:53 #

prediction: in ~50 years, starlink smears and similar formations will be a thing that people appreciate and think looks good - it’ll follow an arc similar to debates about the Eiffel Tower.
(this doesn’t mean that starlink is good btw, it’s bad because centralizing communications infrastructure is bad, and people’s aesthetic concerns are also valid. but aesthetic concerns will change over time, and once people are used to seeing smears like starlink, that will become part of “natural beauty”)

Apr 28, 2020 — 21:56 #

i should maybe think a bit more about how much i optimize to maximize other peoples yearning for me…

Apr 28, 2020 — 21:31 #

Right Round The Clock is the song, i was getting it confused for Mad World, which it references:


> I’m feeling kinda crazy, I’m feeling kinda mad
> The dreams in which we’re famous are the best I’ve ever had
> I’m feeling kinda crazy, I’m feeling kinda mad
> The dreams in which we’re famous are the best I’ve ever had
> You’re the best I’ve ever had
> You’re the best I’ve ever had

Apr 28, 2020 — 21:24 #

ah i found the song! it wasn’t actually a remix it just has lyrics that conflict with a much more famous song

Apr 28, 2020 — 16:23 #

fuck a song that i have stuck in my head from some youtube rabbit hole weeks ago was apparently a remix so i can’t find it by searching the lyrics and now i’ll probably never find it again :(

Apr 28, 2020 — 13:35 #

it’s gonna be funny to go to the climbing gym when this is all over and just watch everybody be complete trash at climbing

Apr 26, 2020 — 23:07 #

i like writing code, but i don’t like having code

Apr 26, 2020 — 20:25 #

thinking about getting really into parsers

Apr 26, 2020 — 00:47 #

hmmm i just emailed a @gmail.com address that i haven’t interacted with before with the word “sex” in the title and a link as part of the body text, what are the chances that they’re ever going to see my message…

Apr 25, 2020 — 20:54 #

huh, i just now realized that the reason that i always mix up it’s and its for possessives is because you use an apostrophe to indicate that a name is possessive, but that’s more of a special case than anything.

Apr 25, 2020 — 19:55 #

remembering when someone found a bug in some code i wrote when i was at google, but was like “i don’t think the bug could be here, this file is copyright google so it’s probably right”

Apr 22, 2020 — 12:07 #

thinking about running a rss-only blog

because of course i need more places to write things…

Apr 21, 2020 — 12:17 #

<3 thunder

Apr 17, 2020 — 13:18 #

you know that programming advice is good when you have to scroll the wayback machine all the way back to 2001 to see it

Apr 17, 2020 — 02:52 #

APIC and ACPI being entirely different things which interact with each other in subtle and annoying ways is some strong chaotic evil energy

Apr 15, 2020 — 23:25 #

the web is bad

Apr 15, 2020 — 22:28 #

wasm is magical

Apr 15, 2020 — 21:32 #

does my version of thoughts support linebreaks?
maybe?

Apr 15, 2020 — 19:37 #

content-addressable types

Apr 15, 2020 — 18:26 #

i figured out how to make my hair be straightthis is a gamechanger

Apr 15, 2020 — 15:37 #

huh, i didn’t realize that Notes on the Synthesis of Form and A Pattern Language were by the same person

Apr 15, 2020 — 03:33 #

i want a “calendar”, but instead of being a calendar it’s a constraint solver/optimizer that i can feed arbitrary constraints into (both binary, like “i need to visit this store, which is open at these times” and scalar, like “i want to assign X weight to getting my quota of exercise in”). then the calendar part is that it also speaks ical so it can know about less flexible events and show everything in one place.

Apr 13, 2020 — 20:23 #

i guess one change in my politics in the past ~4 years is that i think i basically support a californian independence movement at this point (and if it includes cascadia, even better)

Apr 13, 2020 — 20:08 #

i don’t check twitter for one day and my housemate offhandedly mentions the Six State Council coming together to form their own govenrment. i ask if the nation-state of California is part of it, but no, they’re part of the separate “West Coast Pact”reality is a bad sci-fi novel, but hey, at least i’ll get to see the collapse of the american empire within my life ¯_(ツ)_/¯

Apr 13, 2020 — 00:55 #

strongly considering becoming anti-floating-point

Apr 12, 2020 — 22:56 #

starting to think that a lot of liberals really hate the idea of trump, but not like, any specific thing that he’s done

Apr 12, 2020 — 21:23 #

cannot stop thinking about this tweet.

Apr 12, 2020 — 19:24 #

my crappy but convenient earbuds broke, so now i’m using my nice but sort of annoying headphones, and wow does everything sound so much nicer

Apr 11, 2020 — 11:40 #

ugh i got up at 11am for a thing but it turns out it’s at 1pm

Apr 10, 2020 — 14:03 #

starting to get a little annoyed at my sleep schedule - it sucks to wake up and have no idea what time it is.

Apr 09, 2020 — 11:17 #

there’s something special about writing a proxy - at first, it just works and is completely magical, and then you can start dipping your toes into the stream of bits going past, mucking with things here and there and seeing what changes, slowly understanding the structure of the protocol going past you. it’s a good way to understand a system.

Apr 09, 2020 — 03:50 #

fuck how is it 4am already

Apr 09, 2020 — 03:35 #

ok i wrote my own varint parser, that wasn’t that hard

Apr 09, 2020 — 02:22 #

gotta love finding a library that “parses varints,” does not specify what type of varint it parses, and lists as example applications, three different protocols which all use slightly different varint specifications…

Apr 09, 2020 — 00:58 #

slowly coming to terms with the fact that i am bad at writing computer programs

Apr 08, 2020 — 23:29 #

started watching the most recent Well There’s Your Problem, and getting really frustrated at how bad leftists can be at… not being wrong about things. there’s this whole generation of Chapo Trap House/Mike Gravel/Well There’s Your Problem style leftism that seems to be pretty effective drawing people in, but does so by just lying and/or not bothering to research anything and just assuming all facts line up with their worldview, and it’s just really frustrating to me :/you don’t need to make shit up to convince people of leftist ideas, the truth works well enough for that.

Apr 08, 2020 — 02:40 #

having lots of thoughts about how credentialism relates to the current covid-19 situation. i still don’t believe in credentialism, but i do believe that it doesn’t make sense to trust inexperienced people. it’s hard to communicate that distinction, though, especially given the nebulousness of what counts as “experience”i think it’s somehow tied in my mind to the sre org at goog, and how that was so full of people who had taken weird paths to get where they ended up, and were really great at their jobs because of it. i’m sad that that’s not something we see in other fields much, especially given the value that i think there is in applying the sre skillset to other domains.

Apr 07, 2020 — 17:51 #

uh, it’s a little strange that that didn’t prompt for my password, but ok….

Apr 07, 2020 — 17:50 #

if this works, then it means that the integration with my password manager worked :o

Apr 07, 2020 — 17:47 #

i can write thoughts from vim! that’s cool :)

Apr 07, 2020 — 17:43 #

testing writing text in a file!

Apr 07, 2020 — 17:33 #

links and shit maybe work?


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